Life of a con-man

Drama always happen in an advertising agency be it drama cause by client or some internal drama... 

Our department have a new boss, when I heard the news I sincerely hope that it will help improve how the department operate and also improve the people in it... Well having my hopes up leads to disappointment... She is a Miss amplify that blow things out of proportion and yea... Build up DRAMAs that stress up the situation even more... 

A leader that don't know how to lead, all she know is to dwell on issues and amplify the matter... The most out of everything is a leader that always go to meeting LATE! That loses all my respect!

Don't think we can get her to stop what she do I do believe that we can never teach old dog new tricks... Especially stubborns ones...

Awkward

Maybe age do affect how a person's thoughts and personality...

I don't know why but lately i m more quiet compare to what I use to be...

Suddenly part of me miss something that is left behind, behind within time, that feeling being a little sad yet that sadness is hide behind other emotions that make it peep out through the key hole of the heard...

Heavy indeed it felt, yet it will quietly dose off and maybe... just maybe it might come back the next day or days later when it felt like too...

Maybe I chose wrongly?

Maybe I don't belong...

Or maybe I just want to be free... free to walk the borders of the country...

to see, to hear, to feel and to taste...

Maybe my position is to be awkwardly not fit to fit?

To fit

I don’t know… when you long so something to comes and you kinda turn desperate before it all happens… when you got it, you felt that you don’t belong… of maybe I just need time to fit in…

Just not use to be alone… When there are groups of people around you…

Just felt like I m a chuck-a-side doll, sitting quietly till it comes to an end…

life's a bitch! crush her!

I’m normally a person that adjust easily to situation, new environments and people… but this time I have some doubts… doubts that this new big company that I kept dreaming on of getting in will just crush me…

Because of all this I have been longing for this pass weekend back at Kelantan, home~ it is no doubt a good rest but yet starting the new week kinda gave me a wee bit of depression.

Browsing through facebook after touching down from KB… there is this boy on China got talent, he lost both his parents when he is just 8 and he is living on strong… it kinda lift the depression and I will hold on to it and will stare the bitch in the eye~!

Erased

If I am erase from everything, everyone's memory, government's records, employer's records, schools' records, the internet etc...

Will anyone felt that there is someone missing in their live?

Will anyone felt that there is a speck of memoir missing... Although they don't no what, but still they miss this speck of erased memories...

Or I will just drown in the cold dark sea of forgotten memories...

Help?

Someone throw me a rope please…

And who say rats are lucky in the rabbit year?

Or this is just a test?

But it is a fucked up 1…

Sick!!!

Have been sick for the pass few days, felt like crap!!! fever have gone but I have been coughing my lungs out!!! arrgh!!

黯

就是黯寂的思绪，

可能太无聊了吧，

可能就是佳节的到来，

可能已经习惯有人倍,

可能离开了却把影子留下。。。

Maybe

Having my lunch infront of the computer again, eating sandwiches I prepared this morning. Refusing to follow the rest of them for lunch because I really really can’t feel the click… maybe I m the problem… maybe…

I ran across this blog while munching on my tuna sandwich - Another Paper, which a post is talking about anniversary and this reminds me of someone; counting the days that we are together as if the relationship won’t last.

Maybe is me, I didn’t provide enough of security for her to build that confident level.

Maybe she is someone that cherish every moment we have till that she need to celebrate it monthly.

Maybe and all ends in maybe…

天杀的

六人公司都发生的情形。。。

乱思

听着她留下的歌，
思绪拼命的涌出，
淹没了一切一切。。。

Bite me tongue...

There are some phases people will always hang by their mouth…

The one I hate the most is always hang by my boss’s mouth is “is very simple…” to bad he is not the one executing it… if not he will know how simple things is done when plan and how hard things can be execute, do with your hands not your mouth...

What will he know? He pay me to clean up the shit, so bite me tongue…!

Freeze

The time seems like it is freeze at 3o’clock, it doesn’t tick anymore it crawl slower than a tortoise… the things on my plate has partially been clear, there are some other jobs that needed my attention but hack I m just not into it…

Dunno why the fire in me is lesser and lesser… is it me? Is this my forte? Or I m freaking stirring my own freaking mine… yea simple is just not me…

最近

没有一刻是自己，

没有坐下来沉淀的时间，

没有坐下来哭的时间，

没有坐下来发呆的时间。。。

每一刻都是占据着事，

永远忙不完的事，

是好是坏？没人知。。。

至少生活是彩色的，

至少不是孤单的。。。

还蛮怀念自个儿坐在河边看夕阳的时候，

还蛮怀念一伙人坐在海边唱歌的时候。。。

The key to my heart

I don't open my heart to everyone; limited access and it need to be earned.

Too much I kept for myself; too much can’t be accept by people around me.

We are all trouble

We are all trouble… yea the best way is to bla it out to the nearest person in your heart, we can’t just recover in seconds, but yea let’s take it as an adventure ok? At least u know that I m in this bumpy ride with you… maybe in different rides, but my cart is just next to yours until the next turning…

After that turning we won’t know what will happen… you cart might drift away, or you might stay… till then I will be holding your hands, you won’t be alone in your cold cart, my hands will keep you warm until the next turning comes…

她的脚

我妹敲了我的门说：“你回来了，妈都还没看到你的脸”

有少少不好意思，俏皮的到老妈前给她看几眼，“你又阔了！”（我妈就是喜欢我中学时期的瘦猴样）“你吃什么啦！吃到酱胖！”白了她一眼就争论着是壮不是胖等。。。

老妈唠叨了几句就叫到“帮我按脚~”

想想我也好久没帮老妈按摩了， 中学的时候她肩膀酸疼会要我帮忙按、颈睡歪了也会要我按，会按摩也是那时候练出来的~

一屁股坐在老妈面前把她的脚板举起就开始按。。。

老妈的左脚因为拉到筋起了小瘤、她娇小的脚开始干了，筋也浮现了。。。

把我们带大、建立、维持我们的脚、为了我们三个而累了的脚。。。

现在我还给不了什么，就只可以为你按脚，为那为了我们三个伤痕累累的脚按摩。。。

I'm your cuddly bear

Sorry for being clumsy and insensitive…

Sorry that I forget to walk you to your car…

Sorry that I forget to kiss you goodbye…

I say those things not to chase you away, but just simply a thought back of my mind…

We dunno what will happen in the future and I never say the lizard is not you…

I always like personality, special personality, people that are not BORING especially in a relationship… look at my friends, talk to the others and you will know… cause I don’t get into a relationship that easily if not I won’t be single for that long.

Talk to me rather than guessing…

Discuss with me rather assume what I think…

Talk to people who know me rather than, people that guess me and blur your perspective…

I miss you opening the door for me every morning (I knock even though I have my own key).

You are special of cause, if not I won’t bother spending the time… of cause you are my “iguana” and I will always be your cuddly bear until times comes…

乱吠一通

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Book - Crap

A relationship is like 2 people reading a book.

The phase must be the same; maybe a beat slight difference is tolerable, but one must not be a page or two far away from the other.

If it run off a page or 2 in the beginning it might still be sweet, “I will wait for you” one might say to the other.

When the story comes to the climax and there are still differences, one might be restless of waiting and the other might be tired of running after…

Most of the time the 2 people will lost attention for the book and never finish reading it…