lonely~ i m so lonely

I just watch one of my fav secom scrubs, and this episode JD kinda reflected me, he is ask out by a lonely women who her husband been in a common with life support for 2-3 year, they dated but JD's friends reacted to it, but he blow it off by asking if the women is really wanted him or she is just to have someone by her. some people just don't realize how lucky they are to have someone by them, but having to ask more from the other that is some time unreasonable, well being alone sometimes is really depress, hugging a pillow as if it is a person but all you feel is a soft pillow then a human body with a heart beat, sometime staring no where and gaze off wonder if there is anyone to go to a movie with, to hold my hands to keep it warm, and lay on my chest and weep when she is sad with someone to look after and been look back at, one thing I agree that what he says about people are not mend to be by themselves, when u find some one you care about you have to let go of some little things, even you cant let go all the way, because nothing sucks then feeling all alone not matter how many people are around.

dateless

i don't know what actually get into me, damn i m sick of being single damn sick of love songs, sigh maybe i m just not the loner type of guy wonder around when i needed someone for acompany, kinda miss my buddies abit, i dunno maybe of the growing up it sets us apart alot, and it is unlike me to cloze up to people like i have been doing and when i started to open up they are going off, kinda miss the bunch on group assignment struggle on how a game board will be, hahah good luck guys overseas, well i guess i should work harder in finding my long term accompany but not meaningless sex, or pulling friends out on a so call "date" damn sick!

trip to klang

Damn brain dead off writing the essay, chapter 1 done but what about the rest of the chapter?! Sigh swastika it will be cool if I know more and I m a better writer... Last few days me and the gang when to Klang to find tai lou, have bak kutt teh as branch it really is nice, so it is true that klang is famous for this haahaha (know it for a long time) when kareokie to kill out some time and when for a few games of pool with tai lou, just to have my ass kick he is too good for me. and dinner at tai lou's cafe, the set there is the bom, have red wine lamb, snail bake with mozzarella cheese and some garlic butter damn delicious (still can taste the dish in my mouth) and having 2 bottles of heineken (fav beer) it just superb!! It is a fun day (and an expensive 1 hahah) on our way back to KL we decide to go have a walk at a pasar malam at jalan ipoh, getting a phone from a friend, jiabing brought us to an other 1, and as a surprise, I don't really know if it is call a pasar malam because the length of it we finish the whole "journey" take not even 10 minutes, and got cheated by an unclear pirated DVD (this is an advice to not buy pirated stuff, but hack I m just a student).

trip back to kelantan

Just woke up and finish my bath and all, but I still felt tired cause not sleeping on my own bed ahahha because of you (you know who you are, just kidding heheh) an it have been 2 days counting from Sunday night cause I m on the train on my way back to KL, going back to Kelantan is fun, at 1st I thought that it will just be me and me alone with my work but hack what a surprise, wai came back and he thought he can surprise me, but they blow their own cover hahaha, have my RTP shot but the quality of the video... but what the hack, see what I can cope out of it. Ok now to the fun part, we when to tok bali at Saturday and the place is fun, the sea water is clear, the breeze is nice everything is perfect till the rain come ahhaha, before that we are swimming and battling (throwing balls of sand at each other, having alliance and betrayer ahaha kinda fun), we have nasi kukus when we got back to KB, i think the guys (which wai brought back) enjoy it, watch some movie and when on to supper, again something that they never have before Kelantan laksa and that is the end of the day. Till the next morning, we when to latar tembaka, walk all the way up the mountain to a beautiful waterfall, the road up is tiring but the view is killing plus there is no 1 else around, the water is freezing but still we when swimming heheh, the fishies they just swim by you and some time nibble a little on us if we are not moving (tickles) have a few games of wrestling the game goes like this, 2 of us (the big 1) being the base and the other 2 (smaller size 1) sit on our shoulder, try to push pull the other site down, taking picture and all it is fun, when is it 1 something we pack our things and when to the near by hot spring~ men it is hot but find, the only limb I can soaks in the water is my legs and wipe myself with my shirt, cant go all in because I m a little dizzy, well when we are at later Tembaka I drank 3 tins of beer and the last 1 is gulp, so soaking in hot water make it worst (lucky I avoid it), then the rest of the day is going back to KB cause I have a train to catch at 1845, after taking my stuff we stop by a store and have some somtum (thai food, using raw papaya and other stuff to make it, spicy and sour, nice!!) and ask the lady to add some more chili in it, since they require spicier, have some satay as my dinner and off I go.
(I will post some picture of the celandine trip on my next blog so, read up heheh, and leave me some comment)

disapointed movie trip to 1 U

sigh, brain dead too much to do but i dun have the urgh to do my wrok sigh, tired... tired of everything, sigh but there is something to be happy about, the guys cancel the trip to redang just because of me hahaha, felt abit uneasy for a while there but hack they waited for me yeah~ thax guys love you all~ need to again crack my brain for assignment and what to do tomorrow??
but a lest i done something this week end, manage to drive to 1 utama from setapak, I drive my friends over, hahaha i m so proud ( cuz my sense of direction is abit off) but is getting better i when that far~ yeah me, and for plus creadit i drove back too~this is the only thing i achive on sunday, we saw a movie and stuff but screw that boring movie, i felt stupid watching that movie sigh cuz i m always right for some movie, but for this aiks...

it live!!!!

My desktop it lives, it's a live but the other part of it is still not, cant get to read the other hard disk, damn i hate when this kind of things dont just go smooth, dont nothing but watch DVD all day long, i m dead meat men, can have myself to actually do my research for my easay, but hope it go smooth please~ reincarnation... what should i write about? relate it more to advertising? or just back to belive? but now i needed the defenation 1st before i start, read then tomorrow sigh. now just back to the "pretender" 1st hope i m like him, be what i like.

10 chewy idea

finally done elaine's part of the assignment, fruity, chewy candy with vitamin c, kinda sick of it now, damn 10 ideas all different but damn myself for dragging hehehe, 2 days more then 5 idea is different bravo to myself hhahaha to lazy to think more, the rest is just recontruction of the other ideas using different composition sigh just galde it is over of now, watch some series to perk up a bit have some relax time, the pretender this drama is cool~ just been through an episode that they are in christmas, it always felt warm there but sigh me and my friends and faminly don't really celebrate it, just wish that we can all sit down in a room, cook dinner together eat and chat and have fun, enjoy the season together, waated my friends to be there cause i don't really have a girl to share it with too bad (but even there is a girl, i will want her to join my friends, cause i wanted all the special people together)

chapter of my life

part of my life
i wanted a car!!! sick of just stay over here at cyber jaya, and the crapy bill that i own telecom but i didnt use it, a former house mate of mine make all those call, and now he is not to be found, fuck him, have him burn in hell men, ass hole!!!! but hack i still have to pay it damn! so see my life do sux hahhaa, neh i m cool with wat i have now, but not what have happen to me... wanted to go clubbing release some stress lately with all the assignment that never really ends, well have more to do ciao~

humans

men kind
just finish watching island, i know it is abit late, or i should say out heheh but i don't give it a damn, the story is cool althought it's a scine fiction story but it is a topic now a days people all around debating, is it right to clone? have a spare part for those who can affort it? is it cruel, taking life from the other just to survive? is it fair? for me i kind of hate this kind of selfish act of all humen being, it won't be fair every where. but at lest some of us is educate to be, but influncing from the group we mix in, the social life around us, it kind of shape some one's behavior it all run in slpit road.

a beginer

1st time blogging ..here..
yeah 1st blog post out of my friendster hahaha, have wanted this so long but kinda drag it till now, i dunno just felt like doing it now so i done it, ha! How u like it... actually men I really, seriously need someone right now, damn i dunno a song can make me depress, my life sux~ (just wanna say that, cuz everyone do) i know my life is ok and stuff but now it really sux, seriouly i needed someone to help me make things straight, she who will just lay by my side cuddle, kiss her on her fore head flirt around abit hehehe... Don't get all dirty...
but now all the song sound sad, even happy ones...
a good friend say that i seem different, i grow up from my own self, i dunno but sometime i just wish thing will just stay like what it use too, and getting what i wanted is easier then now, just wish that i can go out oversea to stay have a new all new environment. now all i wanted most is to get to an island with my friends (which i wont now cuz i kinda get ditch, cant blame anyone but i m damn piss! fuck!) but i dunno if i can manage to go alone, it is depress enough here at home, vacation alone?? i should just kill myself...
damn is late sleeping soon, ciao box, my box of spill haha~