arrgh~ frustrated!

Yesterday, I got another interview that I was not proud of, being nervous although I know I can do things better! Much more better than what I have done, basic question answers with shiver, short questions having answers block up in the brain~ damn!!!!
and not enough research!! bang bang(banging head on desk!)


picture taken from http://www.cartoonstock.com/lowres/cgo0246l.jpg

And I just found out that the gastric I lately have is build up by eating too fast, means bad digesting and that build up to be what hurts damn damn damn!

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The tears of a child drop down,
Just because his play mate is rough,
No because that he misses his family.
Where are they he don’t know anymore,
This is now is home,
Shelter from the cold world.
He needs to learn,
Learn from breaking off the shelter,
Breaking of the shell that is given.
Child,
Be strong and learn to be strong,
There is no other than you to protect…

2007 x 2

2007 2007 they say it is a special day, I won’t be here again… well to me it is big but I go off normally, well it is still not my 25 hahaha, I wanna have a big celebration by then!!!! I must afford a lot by then, one of the birthday wish~ well after 12am I m officially a 23 year old BIG BOY~ yea I m still a child at heart hahaha


a present from SY, wai and jiun~ thax

good luck to myself...

Now I am outside a Starbucks (stealing their line) at Plaza Damas, well I am here for an interview, killing sometime till the interview time. I dunno why but I am damn nervous, well starting of something new after my degree… and still waiting for other reply calling for interview from other company… sigh hope I get something good… wish me luck~

tag tag

Well now back at Kelantan nothing much to do, but still kinda enjoying the emptiness, have nothing to blog because of this I remember that I have been TAG hahaha (well 3 months late… been tag by X.YUN months ago, a promise is a promise), well here goes nothing…

Game rules:
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I may look mean and big but I own a teddy bear… a green 1 I call zombie…

2. I like getting drunk, that why I drink a lot when I can, is fun getting lost in myself, well I done fun things while I m in it, now controlling it hahah…

3. I am to sensitive, man I have to control this, well which ass hole says man can’t cry? Talk to my fist!

4. I m a jealous guy, I envy my friends for having what I don’t but I wish them all the best with all I got, I hate when the girl I date talk about her ex or current well I don’t think any man can cope…

5. Music~ love it; wish to stand on stage to sing to a crowd sometimes.

6. I have too many problems that I wish I didn’t have, but still those problems made me the artist (self-proclaim) I am today hahaha…

7. I love cartoons and comics, well I m still a little kid inside.

8. Stress management…. Hmmm not so good at it, well sometimes alcohol and nicotine helps, as above, let thee be lost in I…

9. Can I say I m shy sometimes? Hahah I can hear people booing at me…

10. Oh one fucking thing I hate myself by is, I need lots and lots of money! Man I am bad at managing money… need to learn how soon!

My tag list…
1. Swing
2. Yiling
3. JWHX
4. Xiunuan
5. Mian
6. Sageena

got ppl request to tag hmmm

add raei...

Gadering

Well I m now back to Kelantan again~ you know la back there at KL no money no walk~ plus most of my friends all WORKING, no car some more etc etc so I decided to come back stay home for a week (maybe) and send of resume…

Well before that one of the reason I when back to KL is because one of my friend is now married!!! A wife! Shocking? Neh not for me, seen it a lot of times now this days, but 1 little secret she ain’t pregnant! Just deeply in love~


an early bird picture with the bride and groom before the others come

After some photo section…


We eat!


Drink~


and bullshit as usual~ hehehe


drink drink~


photo again


and again (this one is more complete, with all the people that came)

after that we jump over to gree box for some fun~
starting from 12am till 4am...



Having fun can be tiring...


Rumor has it, they will be the next… hehehe


When we are not singing... PSP is the THING!


The THING again...


The THING again~


Our mini concert...


Group picture group picture~

Well by the moment it is nostalgic, felt like we are still the same old us, us as in D1 as 3 years before, the period that all of us are bond with each other… miss it, appreciate it…

lunch at me place

The last lunch that will be cook for this month, I m going back KL tonight, well 1st dish serve is Bolognese macaroni (it is all left over use, Bolognese sauce use from lasagna…)


Macaroni


Main dish, well I give myself 60%, forget HP sause and is abit too watery


My best side dish ever for now... potato salad


out of yiling's bowl~

our last meal is at yiling's blog, that is Macaroni with Tunna... (click the title to go over and check out the PICS)
wish i can say longer here, dont feel like going back KL and face reality.... sigh

Penang

Well I m still at Penang and it is almost 10 days staying over here, 1st with Sandra, Fresno, Ongky and Sergh a 3 day photographic trip hahaha, well this is the “bad habit” graphic designer have I guess, the trip was fun, places that we go, well I can say people will say seen it boring, but the angle we take as our picture I doubt many have it (well this is too much a brag...) but cool trip.

Taken by ongky, I guess


our 1st meal at Penang, at Gurny Drive


the place we rent at penang


I forget the name of the place, but this is where to dragon boat fastival is


from the left, Sergh, me, sandra, fresno and ongky


Sleeping..


look! is a flying pig~


hmm...


outside some historical fort etc etc....

After that I stay back here and came to Jiun’s place meet up with Yun and Suchin haha girls, the few days is all SHOPPING!!!! So today I decide to stay at home, and be lazy~ beside that we have when to the toy museum, toys~! I love!!! Oh yea and I meet up with Grace a great friend that I know from complicated way, well this show me how small the world is….


well we when to the toy museum, ain't as bad as Ongky said, maybe is because I love toys~, there is soooo much here!!!!!!


me and grace with BOO


this is wat u call kiss ass


love lizard!!! this is a water dragon, getting one soon~ before that need to study how to keep it a life 1st


big ass snake!!!

Curse thee foul luck

Sigh I dunno what the hack luck this is, but my DVD ROM on my Power Book is now fry, well to those people that is not amuse by those foul words, SORRY I m using it anyway, fucking dick sucking son of the gun, what kind of foul luck that thee have cast on me, ill as a hell thee shall burn… (Too much old English stories…) well now my precious has to use external DVD ROM at lest it is cheaper than fixing the fry DVD ROM, it cost like RM 950, damn!!

Blessing

There is a bless but it is often ignore,
There is a bless but it is taken for granted,
There is a bless where others envy,
The land, mountains, sea and river,
There is more to be list,
And as I say taken for granted,
The bless crumble under the feet of selfish men,
Is there a bless?
Or ignorance is too a bless?

invasion

Now I felt like there is a sand storm plus earthquake, damn there is dust every where and unknown man walking around the house and there is a lot to do after the invasion of a group of “strangers” but hack hard work will pay off! I will be having air condition after 13 years living in this house!!!! But hack I only have a few days to enjoy it….

no wishes

There is call when there is something needed,
There will be good mouth when something is needed,
There will be misses when sudden needed is there,
There will be gratitude shown when a favor is wanted,
After that?
Who is he?
Where is he?
What’s his name?
Bah~ he will be ok.
Would I?
Am I that good of a person?
I’m no saint.
I’m no Ginny in a bottle!

label

The society is always labeling people,
Everyone is a judge, everyone is a jury,
I put myself out there to be judge,
But I do my own labeling.

dog eat dog

Time draw down,
Reality surface more,
Is all real now,
The dog eat dog world,
Stepping into it,
How?
Sometimes I see the light,
Sometimes I’m in the dark,
Is a dog eat dog world,
I try avoid being bite.
The taste of hangover,
The taste of nicotine,
Is not a pleasant taste,
But one likes it, no one knows why.
Is a dog eat dog world,
Sometimes we just need to unclear,
Sometimes we just need a break,
To clear things up,
To recharge what is out,
Is a dog eat dog world,
How?
Is still a question.

wasted

a group photo during the exhibition

Friday is the last day of our exhibition, not much business… well it will get better soon. Forget that for now, work is after this few weeks. Ok this is the plan, we decided to crash Luna Bar for an after party, Celebration!!!
We are all dress up (since we go after the exhibition) smart and elegant (at lest presentable), and we have a V.I.P with us – Sageena our lecturer and too our friend, it is quite fun but too bad she have to leave early.
Here come what I really want to say, well alcohol really show our “true colors”, it 1st start with Fresno, he got high the 1st and got recover the most fastest, he got all red and start acting funny dang! Haha, then Razman… well I cant find any differences drunk and not… ahaha, Sandra start being loud and talk more same goes to David hack people sure chat more than they use to, as for me there is always 2 ways if I m sober I will go on sober and sometimes lust come after that… well it happens, don’t judge! The other I will get high loud (louder I might add) and I dunno what have I done…
Well it is proven that designers cant really count, we play a game that we can’t say the number seven (or any that ended with seven), multiply of seven e.g. 7, 14, 17, 21… well the most that we got to is 27 an above… but it is all fun~
Well for those that dunno Luna bar it is damn cool classy with a KL night view and we make a fool out of ourselves, ok at lest I did…


Luna Bar, is a little blur on this pic


from the left, Sandra, Ongky, Dora, Sageena, Hafiz and Mua~


from the left Fresno, Craig, Dora, Sageena, Hafiz's head, Sandra, Ongky and Razman aka G.man hahaha


this, means fuck off!

well after the party I believe this campaign don't really work... sorry Fresno


Fresno's don't drink and drive road safty campaign

late night thoughts

Another sleepless night is now 5am. Today will be the last day working at KLIA and the last day of our exhibition, well hope that it will go better then the last few days, and hope that I am in luck as a few chosen 1. Being up at night always have me wonder about stuff for now I just felt lonely, lonely in a way I don’t really know how to describe, lately I have been doing things that only gods know why I have done it, thee is a big amount of nicotine and caffeine consume lately, maybe is because the stress and late nights, maybe sometimes I worried too much, maybe I just have to let it be for sometimes, maybe I just need to be laid…. Yea fuck it just let it be…

true friends

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/296920
aiyo dun really know how to creat links yet, sorry will get to know in time

about a sick gal

Well pass few weeks ago (way pass, as in last month) my family when to Singapore to visit my little cousin to she how is she (of cause I can’t go, with all the load of shit I have here) from my mom I found out that she is still being a kid (good news) she is trying to be a good host, asking my family to drink, eat, sit and when they are leaving she will ask them to come again, and complain why we go visit too little! Hahah she act like an adult, well she have to take meds and get shot as chemo therapy, and she will yell at the doctor “do you know what is pain!” and ran trying to avoid the shots (well I can’t blame her), and she won’t go to school too don’t really know why, but good to see she is still being a kid and healthy (in a way…) hope she get well soon and fast.

Punk'd

A few minutes ago is a friend of mine’s birthday and he got PUNK’D, good prank, cruel but good prank, his friend took all his valuable stuff in his room, damn he is frustrated, angry and sad! Man! One thing is because our exhibition is coming next week, there is a presentation and submission on this fucking Friday. If all of this things is gone… damn! But it end up fun I think (I m not there) but man! You are Punk’d and Happy Birthday again! hahha

the job

I been working lately at KLIA, as an ambassador something something, in short we are the information people… well one that speaks mandarin (not much though, people that speaks… at KLIA) there is some changes last night I m set up!! (kinda) and is ask a favor from the other ambassador to change jobs, guess what after change I will be the 1 announcing in KLIA, the whole damn KLIA can hear me… but it is still ok for although there is some error made (oops) but I say I pull it out just alright (for a 1st timer doing it in KLIA) actually I have been an announcer before back 5 years ago for a Asian Karate Federation tournament yea it is international hahaha, guess I m good at it (self proclaim bah….)