bitching

There is never a brief for every job,
There is never a clear cut easy to understand brief,
There is never a good tone when things are need to clarify,
You request for all to be done and all to be urgent,
All you do is minded fuck me from day to day…
Still you ask if I still have the heart to continue,
I don’t ask for appreciation because it is what I should do,
But I don’t need to be pin point to all the shits!

Before you blame me, will you reflect on yourself?
Before you point it to me have you realize that there are 4 fingers pointing back?
Nevertheless dear leader as a coward you are, as a coward you act hiding behind our dead body as you take all the credit…

Thanks to you I lost motivation,
Thanks to you I start doubting myself,
Thanks to you I lost respect I use to have for you,
Thanks to you that I challenge myself everyday…

Now please go fuck yourself!
I need to set my head straight,
Need to put myself together...

What to do? Like I always say life's a bitch!

Calendar Girl

A song I dedicate to my love ones...
a mellow song from Stars - The Calendar Girl



If I am lost for a day; try to find me
If you are lost for a day I will find you,
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
But if you don't come back, then I will wait behind you,
All of the things that I thought were so easy
All of the dreams that we thought it is easy
Just got harder and harder each day
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
But we will get through and come to the light and try make this bedroom everything right.
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
While stand on the landing with you I wish to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Will not move an inch out of the dark
Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
My dear who's lost in the world Stay alive
Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
My dear who's lost in the world Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
You dreamed you were dying; as you always do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
but will stand by you and assure you is untrue

I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die
But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
January, February, March, April, May I'm alive
June, July, August, September,October I'm alive
November, December, you all through the winter, I'm alive
I'm alive

My reply to the song in red... the end part is what I want to achieve hope that we will stay alive to see the world together..

淹

睡意被一股莫名的忧郁吃掉了，

孤单的感觉，

战败的感觉，

无助的感觉，

一股股的涌着来，

还记得小时候顽皮而被水淹的感觉，

眼看着岸手却伸不到、摸不到，

胃都被泳池的水涨慢了，

辛苦的挣扎在就要放弃的时候老爸把我拉出水面；

现在没了老爸的手，

望不到救生圈。。。

现在的挣扎还要多久？

还是因该往下沉了？

看似坚强的我；内心可是很害怕的。。。

过往

两个向往简单的人，

已因为向往的简单复杂了，

搞杂了一切原有的梦想，

情以毁。

她嘴上说的一切都是为了遮掩他造成的伤害，

他所做的一切以失去了方向因为原有的以破。

尝试的补偿却让伤口恶化，

她的疼，

他的慌，

都迷失了。。。

而我这局外者只有默默的看，

欲助无望的旁观。。。

逃脱与离开真的可以疗伤吗？