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I m what I spill here, 80% truth from the heart, I m who I am with another 20% of secrets I keep to myself... 这里吐的就是80%真实的我,另外20%的秘密建设了真正的我。。。

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Singapore part 2

Christmas eve is just tiring but is fun since it have been long hanging around the KB gang, all of us have our own path and new social group.

25/12 Merry Christmas! Today I stay back at home decide to spend some quality time with the family, and the girls should have walk off to taopanyeo, my cousin bought me a mug as my Christmas present love it haha, on it written BIG GUY (and it is a big mug!) thanks guys and sorry I didn’t get you guys anything… after a few lazy rest on the bed watching Bleach, my uncles ask if I wanna accompany him sending my cousin to work (pity! Have to work on the public holiday), at 1st he wanted to tour around bring me to visit some relative at Singapore (that I don’t really recall who are they :p ) but end up going back home early cause he didn’t bring his mobile phone out (scared have any critical call). Dinner is just we 2, yingjie have to work, peiyee having fun, zhenhui sleeping in his room (is it? hahah). Cool dinner.

26/12 when to city hall too meet up the girls again and I m early… (Should know what I mean) waited for them for hours, tour around myself a little have a breakfast at subway (cool fast food restaurant, the sandwich serve are all fresh) bought a book I been seeking back here and to found out it is band in Malaysia (dunno why, there is nothing to be band in it, plus it is the best seller, a book by Paul Arden, it’s not good you are, it’s how good you want to be). Finally the girls came and we tour around the five fingers (the architectural looks like a hand), Reai call me up and I meet her leaving they guys and rejoin them when they wanted to go back, hugs to the girls when I go send them off at the MRT cause it is always long to get to see each other. Go have dinner with Reai and spill what is happening lately, meet waishim after that have some cool time catching up and taking photo here n there! Hahah and we got back home, thanks you guys for the Christmas present.

27/12 last day in town so I decided to call up the twins as usual girls are late and I bring zhenhui along, I think our chit-chat bored him up hahah sorry, and so goes to wai’s boy frind, nothing much happen we just chat here n there and go back home, have to pack my stuff and have dinner with my uncle for the last time (this visit) and rest at home till 10 he send me over to Johor Bharu to get on to the train.

Well have some regrets, didn’t have to buy the cap I fit in and like! Will get 1 next time I m in Singapore. Didn’t save up for the trip! A lot wanted to buy but can’t afford! But overall it is fantastica! Love and miss all you guys~

P/S 1 factor that I like Singapore is because that they got shirt, shoes and caps that I can fit into anyone that know me should know that I m not a s size guy.
The other fact is because the culture and people think more openly!

Singapore part 1

Just got of the train this morning getting back from Singapore, the trip is just a blast! Hahah, it can be better if I have more cash and more time there but till this stage I m satisfy with what I got so far.
23/12 me siao hui and sze yuin got on the bus and headed to Singapore before getting on the bus we are still worry about the flood and if we can made it there. In the bus itself we are the only group that talk the most on the trip. Rest off for the day I when back to my uncle’s and the girls when to Jamie’s.

24/4 meet them up at Bugis walk around Bugis village, there is a cool sex shop around the corner kinda cool hahah, Singaporeans are more open minded then Malaysian the government itself too, 1 thing we are not so use to is how fast the escalator is in the MRT, after some shopping at Bugis we when back to Jamie’s, have a rest, dinner and go out for a Christmas eve count down. Not much we got actually but we enjoy the time we have with each other, from Orchard road we got to Vivo (St James) but it is pack! Can’t go in so we got off Quye ki (dunno how to spell it) see the reverse bungie (wanted to get on, but too expensive, I will be broke by then) then to oldest pasar in Singapore have some snacks and walk off to see the lion beside the river, rest with some games and song we decided to get to the nearest hotel (the most expensive told) to pee hahaha, and we doze out, outside of the hotel tumble against each other.

1st 2 days 3 more to go~

Friday, December 22, 2006

Meaningful home made song

this is a MV my friend show me from youtube, I m not raciest but what they sing is quite true not to point fingers but it is true fault is cause but human, no matter what color you are and where are you from!

the song is in chinese and malay~ so don't cloze the page if you dont understand the front part...

another theft story

Last blog is about me meeting some pickpocket and have my stuff taken back; this is about my dad just a few months ago he too meets up with some pickpockets! Form picking till robbing! But now days they are just too stupid to pick their target! That 3 that try to pick my father (at Pudu bus station) got beat up and ran! Like cowards!!! HAHAH! Dad my hero!

lucky me~

Today after meeting our lecturer for a consultation hour (have to do some work on my holiday, damn hate it! but i like the work... just the timing!) jess send me down to Midvelly to change to KTM to get to KL Sentrel, and take a monorail to time square to meet up my friends for a movie. And my phone almost got pick! when I walk up the stairs (from the road) up to the KTM station before i go up there is no one there, until I m half way up out of no where there is this bunch of people that keep poping up, and when I reach the keep squeezing here n there pushing me and 1 of my begs fell, the next thing I knew is my pocket felt empty, and my mind goes damn where is my phone! Immediately I look back and there is lumpy looking guy (I think he is some sort like a Pakistan not sure…) he look back and immediate my mind tell me “he is the 1, grab him” ignoring the people around me I grab him and starch my left hand out and say phone while staring at him, he handed out my phone! I m going yeah inside, take my phone and walk away~ since I m kinda rushing, and when I walk off the only thing I think of is why haven’t I beat him up? The other thought is call my dad. My adrenaline is pumping hard! Haha excited! Just get to realize that there is a bunch of people there if I start a fight I may have to fight against that bunch! Bah I can take care of it hahah. But lucky me~

Saturday, December 16, 2006

just an issue

I been sitting in front of the TV and the laptop for the whole day and it began to get to my mind that if I still function properly, need to get out and do sport or some kind just wish that I m back at Kelantan, damn! I m on my holiday and I need to scarify it for the fucking dump reasons, waste of time. Ok fuck that issue 1st back to the TV.

Well being a couch potato for a few days now, this is an issue I got form the TV – homosexual, what’s wrong with that? Before all that crap that have been go on for donkey years let see it this way, is there isn’t any label on anybody, from once we get to learn we never know that there is straight and gay, will things be normal? If one has a parents that is gay, will they still discriminate? I done a survey before on this topic when ask what do you think of gay and will you discriminate they say no, but when the question ask if you found that you are a homosexual, most of the answer we get is I rather die! Where is the no discrimination?

All comes down to stereotypes, people now a days like to label each other, who say man can’t be a nurse? Woman as a mechanic? And this all move how life will be, how a child is raise. All this just reflect man or should I say human this type of species are the most selfish of all mammal, and to think that we are the most “cleaver” of all.

Well the “issue” is just part of showing how the society works some say they are open, but in the end they seal tide up in a box and throw the key away. Be true to yourself…

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Man never listen?

On a flight to Singapore, a gentleman had made several attempts
to get into the men's restroom, but it had always been occupied.
The flight attendant noticed his predicament.

Sir, she said, "You may use the ladies room if you promise not to
any of the buttons on the wall." He did what he needed to, and as he sat
there he noticed the buttons he had promised not to touch. Each button
was identified by letters: WW, WA, PP, and a red one labeled ATR.

Who would know if he touched them?

He couldn't resist. He pushed WW. Warm water was sprayed gently upon
his bottom. What a nice feeling, he thought. Men's restrooms don't have
nice things like this. Anticipating greater pleasure, he pushed the WA
button. Warm air replaced the warm water, gently drying his underside.

When this stopped, he pushed the PP button. A large powder puff
caressed his bottom adding a fragile scent of spring flowers to this
unbelievable pleasure. The ladies restroom was more than a restroom,
it is tender loving pleasure.

When the powder puff completed its pleasure, he couldn't wait to push
the ATR button which he knew would be supreme ecstasy.

Next thing he knew he was in a hospital as he opened his eyes. A nurse
was staring down at him with a smirk on her face.

"What happened?" he exclaimed.

"You pushed one too many buttons," replied the nurse. "The last button
marked ATR was an Automatic Tampon Remover. " Your balls are in the
bucket under the bed! "


they say man never listen, i say they don't understand us,
i say we are adventurest, but some are just plain stupid...

Monday, November 13, 2006

Photo race part 3

From breakfast we when out to Melacca and here are the photos
thanks god for the good weather this day, cuz the day before this it is just bad for out door shooting, rainy and cloudy.

our 1st stop a Masjid (Mosque)

after that we when down to a-famosa, the "red city" what ever they call it..

Waiting for customer... Zzz...


kinda disappointed, we have to pay even we are inside!

the legendary ChengHo

we decide that most of the contestant will be taking the photo around the area, so we decide to drive out and shoot our pictures in Jonker street

Pictures are taken with our head out and the car moving, (kinda dangerous, kids! Don't do this at home, we are train professionals)

After taking pictures in Jonker street we decided to stop for the famous Melacca Cendol~ yummy, this restaurant looks nice, give a house whole fee, and the dish here is home made.

here it comes

say a...

well that is it of the photo race, although the result isn't satisfying (looks unfair) but it is fun, joining it again if got the chance.
more pictures of photo race at photo race part 1 and 2

Saturday, November 11, 2006

the love of music

i m touch by the sound of the girls singing in the clip my friend send me her voice her brain and her lyrics... to see is to believe


Last night (10/11/2006) is a party for our class celebrating of freedom under the hand of we know who (only people form GDD7B can relate) but it is fun last minutes shopping, preparation, photo shooting and the boost, haha it is damn fun! Just wish that we have this often, and wow for those people after drinking haha, didn't realize before that they are such a talker after they are high damn! I guess every time in class that we needed a discussion (and active 1) we just need black 99, chivas and a Malibu (is it spell like this? to drunk to notice) well it is fun alright but now it is not, Hang Over!!! Ouch!

Monday, October 30, 2006

Counting down

2 more weeks to go till the end of this semester kinda worried now since there is just 1 more sem to go and out to the real world you go~ just wish that I can do something I love and will stay with although with the harsh time that create up stress and tensions just hope it goes well...
thinking about it there is a previous blog I written about hell? heaven? and hack! Is suitable for us that is under stress now hahaha
just hope it goes well...

(I just like this picture and the blue mood of it, don't ask me why I put it here... I probably answer: because it is my blog ha! Plus it suit the mood of this topic)

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Photo race part 2

After port Dickson we are just to late to get anymore pictures the lighting sucks big time, no pro's flash, no sun light and our lecturer is worried, he call us up and ask us to drive directly back to the hotel and check in!
after checking in we dump our stuff into the damn nice room (not very very nice kind of nice, just nice but it work for me, for the price we pay)

pic took at the dinner, hafis, adrain, fresno and mua

me and jesslyn

Azli and serge

we car 36 in our apartment.

the next day we wake up at 7 something after bath etc (what ever, everyone do after they wake up) we when down to have our breakfast (that is provided)

eat out of my plate!

ongky don't be greedy!

happy couple or so? jesslyn and darren


after breakfast we go back to our room and have our "business" done before departing and have to find a toilet after that. and before we start moving some pictures!!


CAR 36~

and drive out to Melaka town for somemore photo before going back to KL. (see it at Part 3)
and more picture where we start at part 1

Sunday, October 22, 2006

What m I like lately

Lately I m work out by loads and loads of assignments

have pass the point of being dead, I m going mad!

stress under tension what ever pros call it I m all that! Just needed a drink and get laid! hahah, anyone have a free Chivas? (I m broke *sob*)

I m that broke that I chew a lot on my big brown beg...

sad huh? *sob*

to work for a meal, I found a job pushing hadicap people in the mall...

just for a nice meal, a decent one at least... sigh...

but a good thing is my parents is there to treat hahah, one of it is being on a trip and it is to Disneyland

to Disneyland is nice..

but hack I got rod by Winnie and Tigger, f**k

I thought that I can fight them and get our things back but...

I got beat up... sigh...

life is hard but sometimes we just need to walk out of hard time

and just give a smile on the face everything will be a-okay~

a reminder, everything in this bloc is partly fiction hahaha

Friday, October 20, 2006

Poem for some people

Some people just don't learn,
some people just blame others for their fault,
some people don't think of their own,
some people just complain how others act,
some people don't see how they act,
some people talk and hurt others,
some people just numb about it,
some people just don't care,
some people don't know,
some people are ignorant,
some people are selfish,
some people are greedy,
some people just don't know what is responsibility,
some people just ignore responsibility,
some people are just self centered,
some people need others to remind,
some people are numb to the reminders,
some people, a lot of people just don't learn

p.s. as a remind, a recall to a lot of some people

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Model for a day

haha last week i help out Cindy's group as a model it is damn fun and the pictures out is damn cool, compliments of Fresno and Liu bin they are the photographer. take a loook to belief.

Acting cool

ha..ha..ha this picture sandra and fresno make me laugh till like this but like it, it is fun!

happy boy

Me and KB

me and cute little cindy

CIndy (Cute like a kitty hahaha dont be mad girl)

like this 2 gals their energy is BIG n they are sporting!

like this pic the mood is damn good (plus it is 1 of the finals the group use for the booklet)

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Photo race part 1

this is such a pass hahah, finaly I got the pictures, the pictures I upload here isnt the high resolution 1 so should be a little off, the race started off from putra jaya, drive down to seremban, port dickson and then Melacca for the night, the next day shoot photos in Melacca town and back to KL. say nothing longer the pictures will tell you all.

Putrajaya mosque

Putrajaya mosque

the other side for a different angel

off to seremban and port dickson

Seremban museum

Port Dickson

more on part 2 and 3

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Teaching of God

What have religions got to do to our life?
What have it done to influence people's thinking?
Some have their mind set (hard heads!) that the only teaching that is right always drop down to the religion that they have choose. Is it really all? Have god really written down what is going to happen from before till the end of time?
if the only teaching of god is right what have one done to achieve in life, other then follow blindly to what is written down by god.
as a free thinker I do agree that there is need of religion for some people as a guide but not as a stick to the blind (means following it blindly). Message should be interpret before agree (cause it wont apply to all), question it other then just receiving.
I found this message damn true, found from a movie call "save" (it is a Christian base movie, but the message it try to tell is damn fucking true).

"if god wanted every individual to act the same, why have he/she create every individual differently? He/she must wanted an individual to live life to the fullest, his/her saying is to guide so that us as his/her child wont get lost on the path of life"

Thursday, September 28, 2006

is negotiation an option?

actually this is a report i done for my group assignment (read between the lines but it is quite clear most ppl will get it... i think) oh ya for this assignement we needed to come up with a video (a short clip / drama), and this video is about negotiation.

The topic this time is negotiation, this is use every where and almost every time, from a family, a child bargain extension for his curfew, students asking the teachers or lecturers to extend the deadline, employees talking to their boss for adding salary or promotion, even in a kindergarten, kids use candy to negotiate for a toy etc. by not noticing it we uses negotiation all the time.

The outcome of the negotiation sure will determine which side is winning or losing, and it will break down to 3 result, for the first harmony result, both party wins what we call as a win win situation, both side have some benefit and both party is satisfy, the other will be lose win, where one party will gain benefits form the bargain and the other will lose something this makes one side happy and the other not, lose lose situation is when both side have lost no one wins but there is too a situation where it is call a tie but this shows that the negotiation isn’t complete because a out come isn’t set.

For this topic we are divided into groups and shoot a video that relate to the topic, there is 2 scenario for us to choose and we have chosen exercise one where a creative director and her junior designer have a conflict and negotiate how should the problem being solve. First the misunderstanding, quarrel (conflict), and the negotiation the process to find a solution, or path to determine the responsible.

How conflict starts? A lot of facts actually helps creating misunderstanding, when communication isn’t properly done, when there is noise (interruption) where one is using a media to communicate to the other, the other party may misinterpreted a word and the whole conversation will mean differently, or when there is no communication, this is always the problem people face, no communication even with the closes as ones parents this is just partly facts that lead to miscommunication. Other then noise there is too the basic fault most people will do, assumptions, “I assume that I have told you all what to do” (but no part of you all disagree with that, from here who is right and wrong) “writing / remembering down the wrong facts” form all here the worst is being a hard head, stubborn mistaken but will not admit it, this is the worst of all conflict.

What conflict got to do with negotiation? A way of explaining it is to solve a problem in a more civil way; this is how man uses this to avoid violence that may create unwilling result to any party. In the other way of looking at it, it is still a mini war going on in a room on a table maybe but without involving any cats fights, fires, weapons etc the only thing uses is the mouth and “fight” for it to determine who is the winner or loser.

This is a story that most students or sons and daughter will say even employees, when people is in need to the other party, sons and daughter that is still living with their parents and using their money, students that wanted to pass, employees that needed the job sometimes negotiation isn’t something they can “afford” why say so? A son and daughter will get grounded in certain circumstances, students may got bar or fail by the teacher or lecturer and employees they may put their family in line by getting fire means no money for dinner (well so far from here it is the value people have in mind so far, that’s why a lot of people chicken out, and too them negotiations isn’t an option). Well it is always unfair to certain groups of people it never will.

Back to the assignment, for our character (pick by a draw) yours truly as the junior designer, Cindy as the creative director, LiuBin as the CEO of the company, Hazrool as Cindy’s secondary, Jesslyn as the busybody coworker, and finally Nurool as the client. Well as I have mention on top the story flows accordingly to what I have just stated, there is some misunderstanding, the creative director ask the junior designer to come up with a big presentation in a weeks time but have no time to pay any attention to the junior designer when he approach her for consultation, without the creative director’s help and advice the junior director that just got onto his post have no idea on what she have to do. Just like what I said earlier assumptions, humans like to make assumptions (personally I hated that), using words like “I assume you know” so whose fault is it? The junior designer didn’t push hard enough? Or the creative director that is too busy with her meetings and other projects?

Here the negotiation seems more like a blaming section to point fingers on who is right or wrong and how the people in it work it out for a better or worst. For this scenario the creative director and the junior designer debate in front of a “judge” here is something indirectly negotiating for their future in the job, who will the “judge” feel not good enough or responsible for the incomplete work. Here it indirectly shows the ugly side of human for surviving – in the work place, the junior who is in the low hierarchy will try to pull down the creative director and in the opposite the creative director will just want to swallow the low rank guy up. But in certain circumstances it may turn out pretty, where they work things out together like a professionals leaving hard feelings behind (seriously how many professionals are professionals but no act like one?).

The outcome is not always predictable, who will win the ugly (although civil it is still ugly) battle in pride (show the truth nothing but the truth) or in shame (make things up, just to murder the other party) it is unclear to others. Because of this unclear ugly world of truth although I m straight and clear to people that is in the same hierarchy but still no hard feelings but when it comes to a more superior party I guess mostly I just chicken out, in this phase I m not committing suicide yet.

actually i didnt post up the ending for our story, but if any one wanted to know just ask.

this is dedicated to a person from a higher hierarchy.

p.s. i maybe updating the pic for the video shoot if possible.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Light up!!

I just don't understand how certain groups of individuals think, I meet some of these individuals that kinda love making others life looks like carp, wont be happy if others is, is it how they think? I don't really know but this is just patheticly sick! When I work at a event organizing company I seen some people like this, they complain for certain small speck of things, create big chaos and act like kindergarten uneducated child (even a child think better, see last blog), and they should be 10 years older then me or more! Other then working there is too some people I know that pop up I m live. As what I always say don't make assumptions when you are not good at observation, and this always causes misunderstood or PAIN IN THE ASSS, sigh people that have bald their heads acting like teenages that never have seen the world, love, relationship and live anit just what meet the eye, some are just to shallow to look deep.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Even the children know better

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,
"What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)
Karen - age 7

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.
The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,

"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Indulge by the raw culture and nature

Kelantan, is where i m born, a not so develop town, and maybe because of this it is one of its beauty, and the other way it is the ungly side, people here cloze themselve up and think this is all in the world... sad...
but hack lets see what is so beautiful of this state.
one of the beauty is the central market (Pasar Siti Kahidja), where fresh fruits, vegies etc other then foods there is too some cultural art work like batik etc

the colors of kelantan (the name of the cloth is Batik)

Frsh vegies for sale~

Siti Khadijah form the top

There is a tradisional public trasportation that we use to see around Malaysia, but it is getting less

other then that the raw beach - tok bali, even the locals dont know about this place, cause it is far from the Kota Bharu town, it takes about 2 hours to get there.

ya it is my home town, love it always, hate it always..

(Pictures taken by Raziel -- ME)