lonely~ i m so lonely

I just watch one of my fav secom scrubs, and this episode JD kinda reflected me, he is ask out by a lonely women who her husband been in a common with life support for 2-3 year, they dated but JD's friends reacted to it, but he blow it off by asking if the women is really wanted him or she is just to have someone by her. some people just don't realize how lucky they are to have someone by them, but having to ask more from the other that is some time unreasonable, well being alone sometimes is really depress, hugging a pillow as if it is a person but all you feel is a soft pillow then a human body with a heart beat, sometime staring no where and gaze off wonder if there is anyone to go to a movie with, to hold my hands to keep it warm, and lay on my chest and weep when she is sad with someone to look after and been look back at, one thing I agree that what he says about people are not mend to be by themselves, when u find some one you care about you have to let go of some little things, even you cant let go all the way, because nothing sucks then feeling all alone not matter how many people are around.