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I m what I spill here, 80% truth from the heart, I m who I am with another 20% of secrets I keep to myself... 这里吐的就是80%真实的我,另外20%的秘密建设了真正的我。。。

Thursday, August 27, 2009

雀跃。矛盾

现在的心情就像小孩第一次出游一样的雀跃!!
家人来了、妹妹生日、明天就放假入营!!!
离开城市的几天会是如何的?
但与E-major的经验因该是喜怒悲交叉~
这几天也会有几次的演出排练。。。累
瓦靠!心情超矛盾的~

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

A wooden heart

During the training I heard a song, which can touch a lot of hearts,
This is what she sings:
Last night I when to watch a movie,
A movie about a wooden boy,
The good thing is he felt no pain,
The bad thing is he felt no joy,
He has only one wish,
To be real,
So open up your heart and be real….

How much people that open up and be real?
How thick is the mask that you are wearing now?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

心里的种子

上周末五六日去上课,是个发掘、启发自己的课,这已经不是第一次上了,但情绪上还是像坐上了过山车一样,喜怒哀乐都在三天里捞匀了。。。

这三天里听到了妈妈的烦恼、女人的大树病倒是需要的坚强、男人的的出轨、人从虚假的面具后面走出等等

很多人会有着一种概念,上了这课后人会改变,人要忽然180度那比得到仙丹还要难吧~那至少这一类型的课至少给的是启发给的是个心里种下种子。。。

上课时留下了不少泪,决不会让这些泪白流,希望这些泪会让心里的种子发芽。。。

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

我当人爸了!

一个熟悉又陌生的女人忽然出现在再我面前,把一个包袱塞到我手里哭喊着“你的儿子!” 后就飞箭似的跑掉了,一头雾水的愣了一下,这时包袱再我双手上动了下,好奇心的呼唤下把包袱开起来。。。带来这一生从未有的惊吓 — 包袱里竟然是个男婴!!才想起那女人喊的话“你的儿子!”

正要上班前来单奇事!孩子要怎样安置好?不管了带着他上班吧~再来打算。。。到了公司熬过了同事的好奇与关心但也不知道要把孩子放在那里好!上厕所也抱着,开会也抱着,结果午饭前就被老板赶回家,要我把孩子安置还再上班。。。回家路上静静的他忽然大哭特哭的心想因该是饿了吧?那他该吃奶吧?什么奶呢?包着一个哭得鬼喉的婴儿到附近超市买奶粉,他妈的超贵!钱包、银行都空无一仙,拿起电话到处借钱买奶粉。。。

到了晚上一样的问题 - 怎样安置他?该睡哪里?跟我睡?我又怕压到他窒息。。。怎样好!!!!







这时就醒来了。。。一头冷汗的。。。
我喜欢小孩但在这时候有小孩还真的太恐怖了!!!
可能因为最近一直在和朋友谈着另一位朋友的儿子满月的事。。。

Friday, August 07, 2009

25 Club

又是一个漫长的一天,这星期除了加班加班就是加班!
到了十一点多的时候我们(我与老大)说话的调调就有点像在吵架似的,
他就问:“为什么我们说话都酱火爆的?!”
我说:“没有啊。。。火爆是这样的。。。做咪也(广东话)!!!!
出乎其来的喊叫声换来一个肥龙的跳跃(老大他吓到跳起来~)
这也让我们两清醒些。。。


忠~!生日快乐!!!欢迎来到二五仔Club~
对不起陪不到你吃“寿筵”也谢谢你买了我最爱的宵夜~
臭豆腐!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

CASH AND BURN!!!!

What an ass, you think that you own the road! Just turn in without signal or looking! Fuck that I hope that your car crash and burn and you are in it!!!! And you fucking didn’t stop when I have a emergency break and got bang by a motor at my back~!!!! Jackass as you is you just drive off! Have you break oil leak and you can’t stop!!!! And crash!!!!! Fix the car till you die!!!


I just fix my bumper! and paint it~!!! And you fucking make someone bang my ass!

Monday, July 20, 2009

成长







迎面涌来的一天,成长的一天,
欢喜?失望?似乎少了一样,
未来的今天会是怎样的呢?
会不会还是似乎少了一些东西?
许着愿的时候脑袋空白要的已经忘了。。。
成就?恋爱?明年今日。。。
在祝我生日快乐吧。。。

又老了!!!!


老了的我有三个愿望
1。 找到要的工作 - 人工好福利好广告系的
2。 伴
3。 时间陪伴我所爱的亲朋"狗"友~喜

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

长发三千年



长发三千年音乐剧就来开场了!九月十一,十二,十三日在KLPac (Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre – Pentas Seni KL)开演!

这音乐剧讲述着奇妙的爱情故事
爱可以无所不在,爱可以行如空气,爱可以扭曲时空。。。
但人可以因为自私肤浅而轻易的把爱摧毁,把梦中的她狠狠的伤害。。。


我们的演员岁数从六岁到二十多岁(有好多可爱的小朋友哦~都好会演!!)

Price from:
RM68
RM98
RM128

Date:
11/09/2009
12/09/2009
13/09/2009

Venue:
KLPac

Time:
8:00PM

By:
E-Major Symphony Sdn Bhd - www.e-major.com.my



我是演主角。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。的老爸!
虽然不是主角但也有台词,也要唱歌,也要跳舞(第一次 跳舞~)!!!


请大家多多支持!!!

Monday, July 06, 2009

动脉

送我家人上机后,心情忽然空了一块,
回家的路上手指一直探索着颈上的动脉,
就为了确认自己是否还活着。。。
一,二,三。。。烦乱的思绪一直打断拍子,简单的数学复杂化了。

过后的事就象车马灯一样的闪,
驾驶都是潜意识在控制,
意识就象不耐烦的小孩一直叫嚷着“到了没!到了没!到了没!”
就在着七月,这不耐烦的小孩哭泣着“不要来。。。还不要。。。我还没准备好。”
残酷的七月还是涌着这以不是小孩的男人一年一年的来。。。

动脉跳动的声音确认了我还活着。。。
活着就要面对涌来的每一年。。。



Thursday, June 18, 2009

负到底

最近常翘blog,久久才update一下,但最近实在是太多太多负面的心情,不想箱子里都是负能量的。今天心情负一百,四个小时的信心折磨、心灵创伤、精神虐待等~(我顾客超长气、鸡蛋挑骨头。。)

回到公司时,

公司又地震,我是生存者,
感觉生存者还比牺牲的还要挣扎,挣扎的是上司的无理、无情。。。

以上有些老人家会说:“年轻的~社会就是这样的啦,工作是这样的啦”

老人家们,我知道,我气的是我还要为恶魔工作,要帮恶人抗一箩箩的责任,而他们在繁忙的时候悠闲的放假。。。。

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Happy Birthday Mama~

Mama's birthday~!!! mama coming one year more beautiful~ mama I love you, hope that didn't give you any heart ache this year round, i know that what is promise last year is still not there... will work harder... Happy Birthday mama~

撑撑撑

今天我同事在facebook tag我,他写了一段蛮负面的文章述说着他的认真、决心、热血等,他的每段经历直到我们这分工。。。缺乏领导能力的上司、上司的无理、公司经济的动摇,种种因素腐蚀着他开始的认真、决心、热血。。。


我也是带着希望、向着光明的走向这公司,开始的一切一切都是燃烧着热血的,在任的上司把下属像兄弟的看待,直到岳飞(上司)被害(炒),战士们士气跌到谷底。。。


好彩在谷底还有伯乐的带领,大家都带着“他妈XX的死公司”的心情上班,哪有心情去打战、搏杀?每天给着一定要去上班的理由才肯醒。。。


还要撑多久?!

Monday, June 08, 2009

拥抱

有人说:
拥抱是一个奇特的动作,
明明两人是触碰着的,
但却看不着对方,
那么近的距离有着遥远的差距。。。

Change

Have been staying at my uncle’s for 2 weeks! And today I m finally home (it is hot without aircon). The 1st thing I did is a haircut, 2nd change my bed sheets, 3rd…? Lazy to move any further blog 1st…
Before: I felt this is a little vamparic~











Back to my haircut~ I wanted a drastic change or look, a look that I have long set a side (since secondary school), short! Very short!
After: well this will be the vampire slaver

Now I have some confidence to go shorter~!!! Haha since my dad just shave his head last few days… I m just going with the trend haha

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Store up craziness

I keep on wondering what I have miss out of Friday, there something not right for the weekend, some people are not here, some times and slots are not filled.


I thoughts keep on linger on last week when an adhoc gathering surface, 3 friends came from KB for a holiday trip, 1 came back from Beijing to renew her visa… this is something upland and damn really miss it. Late nights, dinner, shopping etc these things have been long gone since all of us start working… but hope dearly that it is just kept quietly in our hearts’ storeroom.

My JD Chocolate!!! Thanks yiling~

@ Pyramid, ice monster~

the traffic light

the BIGday big ice tea

it is MINE!!! buzz off!!!

the birthday girl: "stop fighting I buy you guys one more"

Next gathering, Hari Raya~ back to KB to party!!! Well for those that think “huh? You can party at Kelantan? Do what sitting separately guys and girls and play chockak?” I suggest that you get a chance and go to Kelantan~

Thursday, May 28, 2009

累的定义

累死了~
太多太多东西做了
但。。。
还算高兴的,
希望这样的高兴在累的定义上持续下去。。。




累可以的话少有。。。

Monday, May 18, 2009

旅者(Nomad)

其中一个梦想就是拿着吉他(还不会弹),DSLR相机浪迹天涯,
边唱歌赚钱,边拍相,旅程的尾段就形成我们的记忆与歌曲。。。

NOMAD..
曲:Chekyo
词:Chekyo
唱:Chekyo

现在就是如此的希望,730天的倒数。。。

Monday, May 11, 2009

WE

When there is You and I against Him, Her and Them, in a small size company the trust, team work and employer – employee relationship have shattered. For it starts as a WE… for where hope withstand here? Is there any left?

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Keep it calm

Yiling~

It will be a shock I know, to go some where you don’t know, no one knows you, nothing you are familiar with. Is like walking in to a maze, LOST.
But one good thing come out of it, is a whole new adventure, a whole lot of new things, a whole lot of new people to meet and know, I wont guarantee that you will 100% love it, but think of it, it is only 2 months~ keep it up and add oil~

Tzer

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

<身边>

记忆中的童年
耳中回响的碎碎念
离家后那几年
心中不断的想念

望着手中的照片 杯里的香片
脑中的影片不断浮现

难忘您们慈祥的脸
好想回到您的身边

回到记忆中的童年

难忘您们微笑的脸
好想亲口说声谢谢

再回到从前....



这是在training时与我的组员写的歌~
很喜欢的一首歌,现在要找回录音,忘了怎么唱。。。 :p