贱男废想

与朋友闲聊吹水时想到的普罗男人的想法，
男人最重视的两样东西：玩与钱
后者是永远都不会够的了，后者时看时候，时候到了重视的东西也会转移。

男人对女人的要求也很简单，
小学与中学时仰慕喜欢的女人会常是比自己年长的，比如：老师、长辈等。

中学到20出头的通常都会喜欢与自己相同level与年纪的。

三十以上的男人上方的两样东西还没够的话通常找的对象都是越来越年轻的，
这是为什么老牛爱吃嫩草。

三十以上的男人要定下来的才敢找相同level与年纪的，
这是有些人说的 Pre-paid vs. Post paid, with and without commitment...

变

来个大转变～

2010 年前的改革！

鱼与水

在facebook是那么容易的了解朋友们的想法，

一下是我与一位好友的讨论：

他在facebook放了以下张金鱼的画，

在画下他写了：

鱼对水说你看不到我的眼泪，因为我在水里，水对鱼说我能感受你的眼泪，因为你在我心里。

我手痒的写了：

鱼把水的包容当成理所当然，
放肆的往水的心里屎尿伺候，
然而水默默的承受鱼的任性，
慢慢的水浊了，失去了自己，
鱼因任性没了原来的水原来的知己。

他：thumb up! your explaination is beyond great

我：not explain but interpretation is different that's all，字是笔者的心、型、思，

从你的浪漫启发了唯美的丑。。。就是如此而已。。。

他：这不是我的浪漫，我是不喜欢某人的行为而写的。

我：那应该是谁的浪漫？那我的讲法讲到你心里了？

他：当你认为是这样时，那就会是这样。鱼其实可以游走的，水也可以干的。

我：没错但他们两都选择了留下，至少水对鱼心是不一的～

他：这就难了。。。

我们的讨论就到这儿，他没再回。。。

我心却想着对他人的心不一难的地方。。。

是给的太少？还是要得太多？

鱼可以游走的，水也可以蒸发但为什么他们两都选择了留下？

碎片

冷冷的十一月的风吹寒了心，

忆境里昏黄的十一月慢慢的被时间冻结了起来；

抬起头看到你那腼腆的温柔，

想起你那酸掉难吃的寿司瞬间的一切暖了起来。

我们建立的全部温暖与甜蜜，

在你背对着我冷冷的离开时狠狠的摧毁、忘了。

每一年天灰灰冰冷的十一月，

心里都会暗涌起冷冷的回忆；以为彻底的忘了，

忘或记心里都默默的祝你生日快乐。。。

bitching

There is never a brief for every job,
There is never a clear cut easy to understand brief,
There is never a good tone when things are need to clarify,
You request for all to be done and all to be urgent,
All you do is minded fuck me from day to day…
Still you ask if I still have the heart to continue,
I don’t ask for appreciation because it is what I should do,
But I don’t need to be pin point to all the shits!

Before you blame me, will you reflect on yourself?
Before you point it to me have you realize that there are 4 fingers pointing back?
Nevertheless dear leader as a coward you are, as a coward you act hiding behind our dead body as you take all the credit…

Thanks to you I lost motivation,
Thanks to you I start doubting myself,
Thanks to you I lost respect I use to have for you,
Thanks to you that I challenge myself everyday…

Now please go fuck yourself!
I need to set my head straight,
Need to put myself together...

What to do? Like I always say life's a bitch!

Calendar Girl

A song I dedicate to my love ones...
a mellow song from Stars - The Calendar Girl



If I am lost for a day; try to find me
If you are lost for a day I will find you,
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
But if you don't come back, then I will wait behind you,
All of the things that I thought were so easy
All of the dreams that we thought it is easy
Just got harder and harder each day
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
But we will get through and come to the light and try make this bedroom everything right.
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
While stand on the landing with you I wish to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Will not move an inch out of the dark
Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
My dear who's lost in the world Stay alive
Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
My dear who's lost in the world Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
You dreamed you were dying; as you always do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
but will stand by you and assure you is untrue

I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die
But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
January, February, March, April, May I'm alive
June, July, August, September,October I'm alive
November, December, you all through the winter, I'm alive
I'm alive

My reply to the song in red... the end part is what I want to achieve hope that we will stay alive to see the world together..

淹

睡意被一股莫名的忧郁吃掉了，

孤单的感觉，

战败的感觉，

无助的感觉，

一股股的涌着来，

还记得小时候顽皮而被水淹的感觉，

眼看着岸手却伸不到、摸不到，

胃都被泳池的水涨慢了，

辛苦的挣扎在就要放弃的时候老爸把我拉出水面；

现在没了老爸的手，

望不到救生圈。。。

现在的挣扎还要多久？

还是因该往下沉了？

看似坚强的我；内心可是很害怕的。。。

过往

两个向往简单的人，

已因为向往的简单复杂了，

搞杂了一切原有的梦想，

情以毁。

她嘴上说的一切都是为了遮掩他造成的伤害，

他所做的一切以失去了方向因为原有的以破。

尝试的补偿却让伤口恶化，

她的疼，

他的慌，

都迷失了。。。

而我这局外者只有默默的看，

欲助无望的旁观。。。

逃脱与离开真的可以疗伤吗？

幕后的感情

长发三千落幕了但牵连着我们的长发才开始建立了长发一家的感情，从一班陌生人变成了一家人。一起度过的酸、甜、苦、辣，一起哭一起笑的一家人。这剧得到一些意想不到的好评，来看的朋友都说没想到会那么好（还以为是学生作）都很期待有没有下一次？

因为我的角色大家都叫我“爸爸”每一次听到这代名词时心里都是甜甜的，最甜的那一次是一个我们叫 “Chicken Monkey” 的小男孩，高度就只到我的大腿，最后一天走前他把我叫住，用手指钩钩的把我引着弯下腰，他忽然往我脸吻了一下说“最爱就是爸爸了”甜到～！！！！

戏谈天下 on the chart~!

What to do? what to do???!!! what to do~!!!!!!!!! our blog 戏谈天下 created by me myself, Vincent and Albert is IN THE TOP 10 (NOMINATED) wooow~!!! what to do I dunno what should I do~ thanks alot for all your supports!!!

结局

年头在二手书店买了一本述说着人类的颓废、贪婪、自私、邪念等等的负能量～
书是黑色的线条与字却是白色的让读者有着哀伤的感觉，
还蛮喜欢那本书的感觉，
但那本书的结局我到现在还不知道。。。
有时结局是未知数也未必是件坏事，
可以让读者有着想像的空间。。。

A Long Hair Musical~

The Stars and Crew of A Long Hair Musical~

A long Hair Charity Musical Performance this 25, 26 and 27 Sep, more info please visit: http://www.klpac.com/Welcome.asp?c=whatsontheatreview&theatreID=323&theatrecatID=7 Part of the ticket money will be donated to Cancer Society of Malaysia...... give some to the people that needs it by enjoying the good musical~!

For a small favor Please Pass piece of info around,
to help give a hand to those that are in the dark and give them the big blue sky~

哭

是不是真的没料到？

这么多封求职信，却一点点回复也没有。。。T.T

雀跃。矛盾

现在的心情就像小孩第一次出游一样的雀跃！！
家人来了、妹妹生日、明天就放假入营！！！
离开城市的几天会是如何的？
但与E-major的经验因该是喜怒悲交叉~
这几天也会有几次的演出排练。。。累
瓦靠！心情超矛盾的~

A wooden heart

During the training I heard a song, which can touch a lot of hearts,
This is what she sings:
Last night I when to watch a movie,
A movie about a wooden boy,
The good thing is he felt no pain,
The bad thing is he felt no joy,
He has only one wish,
To be real,
So open up your heart and be real….

How much people that open up and be real?
How thick is the mask that you are wearing now?

心里的种子

上周末五六日去上课，是个发掘、启发自己的课，这已经不是第一次上了，但情绪上还是像坐上了过山车一样，喜怒哀乐都在三天里捞匀了。。。

这三天里听到了妈妈的烦恼、女人的大树病倒是需要的坚强、男人的的出轨、人从虚假的面具后面走出等等

很多人会有着一种概念，上了这课后人会改变，人要忽然180度那比得到仙丹还要难吧～那至少这一类型的课至少给的是启发给的是个心里种下种子。。。

上课时留下了不少泪，决不会让这些泪白流，希望这些泪会让心里的种子发芽。。。

我当人爸了！

一个熟悉又陌生的女人忽然出现在再我面前，把一个包袱塞到我手里哭喊着“你的儿子！” 后就飞箭似的跑掉了，一头雾水的愣了一下，这时包袱再我双手上动了下，好奇心的呼唤下把包袱开起来。。。带来这一生从未有的惊吓 — 包袱里竟然是个男婴！！才想起那女人喊的话“你的儿子！”

正要上班前来单奇事！孩子要怎样安置好？不管了带着他上班吧～再来打算。。。到了公司熬过了同事的好奇与关心但也不知道要把孩子放在那里好！上厕所也抱着，开会也抱着，结果午饭前就被老板赶回家，要我把孩子安置还再上班。。。回家路上静静的他忽然大哭特哭的心想因该是饿了吧？那他该吃奶吧？什么奶呢？包着一个哭得鬼喉的婴儿到附近超市买奶粉，他妈的超贵！钱包、银行都空无一仙，拿起电话到处借钱买奶粉。。。

到了晚上一样的问题 － 怎样安置他？该睡哪里？跟我睡？我又怕压到他窒息。。。怎样好！！！！







这时就醒来了。。。一头冷汗的。。。
我喜欢小孩但在这时候有小孩还真的太恐怖了！！！
可能因为最近一直在和朋友谈着另一位朋友的儿子满月的事。。。

25 Club

又是一个漫长的一天，这星期除了加班加班就是加班！
到了十一点多的时候我们（我与老大）说话的调调就有点像在吵架似的，
他就问：“为什么我们说话都酱火爆的？！”
我说：“没有啊。。。火爆是这样的。。。做咪也（广东话）！！！！”
出乎其来的喊叫声换来一个肥龙的跳跃（老大他吓到跳起来～）
这也让我们两清醒些。。。


忠～！生日快乐！！！欢迎来到二五仔Club～
对不起陪不到你吃“寿筵”也谢谢你买了我最爱的宵夜～
臭豆腐！！！

CASH AND BURN!!!!

What an ass, you think that you own the road! Just turn in without signal or looking! Fuck that I hope that your car crash and burn and you are in it!!!! And you fucking didn’t stop when I have a emergency break and got bang by a motor at my back~!!!! Jackass as you is you just drive off! Have you break oil leak and you can’t stop!!!! And crash!!!!! Fix the car till you die!!!

I just fix my bumper! and paint it~!!! And you fucking make someone bang my ass!

成长

迎面涌来的一天，成长的一天，
欢喜？失望？似乎少了一样，
未来的今天会是怎样的呢？
会不会还是似乎少了一些东西？
许着愿的时候脑袋空白要的已经忘了。。。
成就？恋爱？明年今日。。。
在祝我生日快乐吧。。。

又老了！！！！

老了的我有三个愿望
1。 找到要的工作 - 人工好福利好广告系的
2。 伴
3。 时间陪伴我所爱的亲朋"狗"友~喜

长发三千年

长发三千年音乐剧就来开场了！九月十一，十二，十三日在KLPac （Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre – Pentas Seni KL)开演！

这音乐剧讲述着奇妙的爱情故事
爱可以无所不在，爱可以行如空气，爱可以扭曲时空。。。
但人可以因为自私肤浅而轻易的把爱摧毁，把梦中的她狠狠的伤害。。。


我们的演员岁数从六岁到二十多岁（有好多可爱的小朋友哦～都好会演！！）

Price from:
RM68
RM98
RM128

Date：
11/09/2009
12/09/2009
13/09/2009

Venue:
KLPac

Time:
8:00PM

By:

E-Major Symphony Sdn Bhd - www.e-major.com.my

我是演主角。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。的老爸！
虽然不是主角但也有台词，也要唱歌，也要跳舞（第一次 跳舞～）！！！

请大家多多支持！！！

动脉

送我家人上机后，心情忽然空了一块，

回家的路上手指一直探索着颈上的动脉，

就为了确认自己是否还活着。。。

一，二，三。。。烦乱的思绪一直打断拍子，简单的数学复杂化了。

过后的事就象车马灯一样的闪，

驾驶都是潜意识在控制，

意识就象不耐烦的小孩一直叫嚷着“到了没！到了没！到了没！”

就在着七月，这不耐烦的小孩哭泣着“不要来。。。还不要。。。我还没准备好。”

残酷的七月还是涌着这以不是小孩的男人一年一年的来。。。

动脉跳动的声音确认了我还活着。。。

活着就要面对涌来的每一年。。。

负到底

最近常翘blog，久久才update一下，但最近实在是太多太多负面的心情，不想箱子里都是负能量的。今天心情负一百，四个小时的信心折磨、心灵创伤、精神虐待等～（我顾客超长气、鸡蛋挑骨头。。）

回到公司时，

公司又地震，我是生存者，

感觉生存者还比牺牲的还要挣扎，挣扎的是上司的无理、无情。。。

以上有些老人家会说：“年轻的～社会就是这样的啦，工作是这样的啦”

老人家们，我知道，我气的是我还要为恶魔工作，要帮恶人抗一箩箩的责任，而他们在繁忙的时候悠闲的放假。。。。

Happy Birthday Mama~

Mama's birthday~!!! mama coming one year more beautiful~ mama I love you, hope that didn't give you any heart ache this year round, i know that what is promise last year is still not there... will work harder... Happy Birthday mama~

撑撑撑

今天我同事在facebook tag我，他写了一段蛮负面的文章述说着他的认真、决心、热血等，他的每段经历直到我们这分工。。。缺乏领导能力的上司、上司的无理、公司经济的动摇，种种因素腐蚀着他开始的认真、决心、热血。。。

我也是带着希望、向着光明的走向这公司，开始的一切一切都是燃烧着热血的，在任的上司把下属像兄弟的看待，直到岳飞(上司)被害（炒），战士们的士气跌到谷底。。。

好彩在谷底还有伯乐的带领，大家都带着“他妈XX的死公司”的心情上班，哪有心情去打战、搏杀？每天给着一定要去上班的理由才肯醒。。。

还要撑多久？！

拥抱

有人说：
拥抱是一个奇特的动作，
明明两人是触碰着的，
但却看不着对方，
那么近的距离有着遥远的差距。。。

Change

Have been staying at my uncle’s for 2 weeks! And today I m finally home (it is hot without aircon). The 1st thing I did is a haircut, 2nd change my bed sheets, 3rd…? Lazy to move any further blog 1st…

Before: I felt this is a little vamparic~

Back to my haircut~ I wanted a drastic change or look, a look that I have long set a side (since secondary school), short! Very short!

After: well this will be the vampire slaver

Now I have some confidence to go shorter~!!! Haha since my dad just shave his head last few days… I m just going with the trend haha

Store up craziness

I keep on wondering what I have miss out of Friday, there something not right for the weekend, some people are not here, some times and slots are not filled.


I thoughts keep on linger on last week when an adhoc gathering surface, 3 friends came from KB for a holiday trip, 1 came back from Beijing to renew her visa… this is something upland and damn really miss it. Late nights, dinner, shopping etc these things have been long gone since all of us start working… but hope dearly that it is just kept quietly in our hearts’ storeroom.

My JD Chocolate!!! Thanks yiling~

@ Pyramid, ice monster~

the traffic light

the BIGday big ice tea

it is MINE!!! buzz off!!!

the birthday girl: "stop fighting I buy you guys one more"

Next gathering, Hari Raya~ back to KB to party!!! Well for those that think “huh? You can party at Kelantan? Do what sitting separately guys and girls and play chockak?” I suggest that you get a chance and go to Kelantan~

累的定义

累死了～
太多太多东西做了
但。。。
还算高兴的，
希望这样的高兴在累的定义上持续下去。。。




累可以的话少有。。。

旅者（Nomad）

其中一个梦想就是拿着吉他（还不会弹），DSLR相机浪迹天涯，
边唱歌赚钱，边拍相，旅程的尾段就形成我们的记忆与歌曲。。。

NOMAD..
曲：Chekyo
词：Chekyo
唱：Chekyo

现在就是如此的希望，730天的倒数。。。

WE

When there is You and I against Him, Her and Them, in a small size company the trust, team work and employer – employee relationship have shattered. For it starts as a WE… for where hope withstand here? Is there any left?

Keep it calm

Yiling~

It will be a shock I know, to go some where you don’t know, no one knows you, nothing you are familiar with. Is like walking in to a maze, LOST.
But one good thing come out of it, is a whole new adventure, a whole lot of new things, a whole lot of new people to meet and know, I wont guarantee that you will 100% love it, but think of it, it is only 2 months~ keep it up and add oil~

Tzer

<身边>

记忆中的童年
耳中回响的碎碎念
离家后那几年
心中不断的想念

望着手中的照片 杯里的香片
脑中的影片不断浮现

难忘您们慈祥的脸
好想回到您的身边

回到记忆中的童年

难忘您们微笑的脸
好想亲口说声谢谢

再回到从前....



这是在training时与我的组员写的歌～
很喜欢的一首歌，现在要找回录音，忘了怎么唱。。。 :p

天杀的热！

热死人了！！！！！！！！！！
今天放一天假在家里"Sauna"
累热累热是累还是热～

这时候最挂念的是距离8小时的老家，
我房间里的冷气～

老家

回家了！！！
到家了！！！
一个安全舒服的地方！
世界在乱这里还是平静的～

Impossible

Lately there are lots and lots of things going on, too much to say, too much and all the too much will be for another day.
Today I have a talk with some of by bro, a talk that keep m in deep thoughts, a talk that clear things up, but because it is too clear I temp to run away from it…
But after a trivia is brought up by my bro and his naïve and optimistic girlfriend bring this up to him, this really brightens my brain.

She intro me to the word IMPOSSIBLE…
And I will use it as my motto in life, in a positively matter…

IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE…

On Titanic

Sitting on titanic,
Gorgeous for out,
Yet it is big and sinking.
The captain has abandon all that have work hard to maintain it,
The best part it, he hire them to improve the ship and yet their skills are not use,
They are discard like unwanted dogs, contrary to what they are treated when they are hire.
And now the big mighty titanic is sinking, no one to mend, no one to help…
No so mighty after all…


Will I get on the live boat? Or will I sink with it?

笑

工作后对着人都是假笑，很久没用肉笑了～
但近期的笑是开心的笑，都因为你，谢谢。。

地震后的余悸

这星期没人有心情，
办公室布满乌云，
唉声连天，
地震后的余悸，灰的、蓝的、悲的。

还好今天有小小的转折。。。
微微的开心、微微的笑、微微的有了颜色。。。

Thoughts of a pawn..

In a game of Chess when a pawn reaches the opponent side of the board, a pawn has the right to be promoted (most people choose queen).
Lately I forget my strategy, I forget how should go across, I forget how to move as for my bishop is no longer there. Am I at the right side of the board defending the right King & Queen? If I lose my castle, I m going down with it…
Any Chess Master out there?

头壳坏

最近不知道为什么头壳好像坏掉了，
整天偏头痛。。。。
整天专心不到。。。
整天做错东西。。。

太多东西烦，太多东西想，
头好像压力锅一样，慢慢的膨胀～
就要爆了！！！！

老大（我经理）关心的问到你干吗？
我干吗？我干吗？我干吗？我干吗？
我也不知道。。。。
给自己太多太多的压力了。。。
唉，会想太多的脑子也有坏处的。。。丢！

代价

老爸老妈～

老爸老妈的“报应”，哈哈

当年的简单，
简单的快乐，
黑白的简单，
颜色的复杂，
奇怪的是现代人都爱复杂，
这是现代人对于花花世界的代价吧？

BAD DAY

I don’t know what happen today, but it is just unlucky to start with.
This morning after I get ready to go to see my client, all smart and tidy, after I cloze the gate I let Tashima (my uncle's Larbador) off the leach from outside the gate, he struggle a little playfully, after I let him go, got in the car and the damn key controller go crazy!!! The gate open up and the dog run out!!! I m running after him IN THE RAIN!!! After 15 minutes caught him, all wet with dog smell! Damn!

See the client, all is bla blab la bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla~

After a VERY LONG MEETING, when to lunch and knock my head on an alter, have an headache and offended “GOD”…. BLAH~!!!

Medium rare...

A good movie is like a plate of fine steak, medium rare cook, nicely spice and sauce.
the 1st bite mostly start off dry, but the spice and sauce tempt you to try on another bite, and each bit it give you more and more juicy and tender meat, more and more it tempt you till the end of each piece...

like a movie life portrait it the same, but too much of temptation, some look away from the steak that start off dry, forgetting the spice, forgetting what it will bring... And sometimes they over cook it.

What a waste...

多一个

朋友说：人的一生可以喜欢很多人，但爱的却只是一个。。。

身边的伴侣是否是爱的？

结婚是爱情还是责任？

是否有一天一句我不够爱你，就把一切摧毁？

我喜欢过很多人，但爱的可以多过一个吗？

离别的时刻。。。

这是在学院时讲的笑话～
短片里讲话的美女，以前新郎哥常叫她爱人爱人的。。。
所以后面我们就讲：新郎结婚了，但新娘不是我。。。
这就是我们的相处方式。。。
这就是我想念的D1

相片陆续有来～

来啊～！！！

为什么人都会对它疯狂？
月尾拿粮，月头还债，
车主以成为车奴，
养车喂车，踩一踩油眼泪就一滴滴的掉。
它再多也不够，为什么？
钱啊～！为什么你都不够用？
你都不来我这！！！！

那时侯

那时的怨只有爸爸不陪我玩，妈妈不给我念故事。

那时侯只想当超人，那时侯就如超人天不怕地不怕的。

那时的撒娇值千金，那时侯的任性。

如今只有提那时侯，以后要给他们我的那时侯。

以后的那时侯会一样吗？

和我一样顽皮吗？

关系=窒息?

星期六正式的收到了红色"C4"下个月的七号，和我平年的朋友就来成家了～
这年龄的他有了事业，有了女人，也即将有了家。
这年龄的我事业刚起步，女朋友没有，成家甭想了～
在着年龄成家是好是坏？
感情成熟了吗？
有能力吗？
会后悔吗？

听到一个可悲的笑话，
男人：看到我无名指上的戒指吗？这叫SufferRing, 家里那个就叫Lord of the Ring....

种种的应素让我觉得，关系这东西实在太抽象了，
不爱为什么会在一起？因为方便？因为子女？太多的因为让人窒息。

五颜六色, 花花绿绿

上整个星期病到五颜六色，花花绿绿的， 星期一因为假日在家休息的时候已经感觉的昏昏沉沉的，星期二也是，星期三发烧全身疼 —— 拿病假、看医生、吃药，星期四回去上班，午饭后脸红发热，过后肿胀，手、脖子开始起红点，起初担心会是Denggi。。。 结果是发麻疹。。。。3天吃粥，2天后才退烧。。。 好辛苦的一个星期～

正面太可怕了～怕会吓到人所以不放。。

好回的“Leng样”

唉～ Leng有舍用？还是要病着过情人节，想想这样也好，要不然也没节目。。。

懒人过年

新年过了明天就过了，有少少失落，再过一两个月我的 Appraiser 就快来了～ 有些担心。。。
至少新年过得好。
24／1：驾着7个钟的车回老家，累死～！
除夕：外婆家吃团员饭。
初一：给老人家敬茶。
初二：一整天在家，到了晚上就是喝、赌～

初三：聚会！每年的初三都会有聚会！又是喝与赌。
初四：还是喝与赌、玩下 King、玩下杀手。
初五：喝茶、玩桌球。
初六：呆在家做乖乖仔，二叔回来～
初七：早上就驾着车回KL，找三叔拜年，载三小姐回宿舍，累累累～
初八：休息
初九 － 初十一：工作！又累又懒～
初十二：这次与老板们赌～ PR PR 一点。
初十三 － 初十四：看戏！病了
初十五：睡一整天～ 病了

新年过了，要更积极了！！！！

糊

模糊的背影，清楚？
该怎么评？
清楚的看还是模糊的摸？

星与心

是月的明，还是夜的黑?
月分外名，但星却是暗，
抬头望星，念着家的星，
星星没了，念家心还在。

Happy MOOO~ Year

More update to come, sorry for slacking hahaha, HAPPY LUNA NEW YEAR~

the light in the dark

Just after a few minutes I post the last post, one of the boss (an Ausie) came and called me in for a "chat" the 1st thought in mind is I m dying soon… but surprisingly my bosses are damn supportive, he ask me in for a counseling section, just to make sure that I m starting to get use to the company etc, well my confidence boom straight up, at least I know I will suffer but still there is a whole group behind my back backing me up. Well the ass hole loses~!

in the dark

They say being in your comfort zone don’t give you the mileage to go further, well I m now in a deep shit situation (I felt it myself), the unconfortness is way higher than I thought, I don’t feel useful and my confidence is now way low (just for now)! Sigh a long hour working Graphic Designer is way more comfortable… but hack this is the start, my skin will grow thicker eventually, I think it will act as a better amor…hopefully…

I don't want to be a disappointment...

damn comment

Next time I need to plan who the people I call to club with, last Friday I when to Poppy to celebrate a friend’s birthday with a bunch of friends, from my part I call 7 of us 6 guys 1 girls, the other group have 1 guy 10 girls, well it is a wild fun night. Today I when I when dinner with this birthday girl, she told me some comments the other girls gave her for the crazy night, this guy is handsome, this guy is quiet, this guy is blab la bla, when she told me what they say I really don’t know what kind of response to give… the chubby guy… where do the chubby guy live ah? The chubby guy is kinda fun to be with… the CHUBBY GUY! Damn! This (my body) here is 70% build out of muscle!!!! I work out!!! Damn it!!! The CHUBBY GUY!!! Ahh well to them I m really big in size, and yeah the rest of the guys that are there are mostly smaller in size compare to me… I m speechless…

消灭惆怅

2009年第一个夜的惆怅，
2009年第二个夜消灭了，
疯狂烂醉的夜，
暂时把所有搁置一旁，
那晚的快乐导致起身的宿醉。。。
至少晕还是快乐的。。。


还是很没女人缘。。。丢～

2009年的第一晚，

2009年的第一晚，
一样的夜深人静，
一样的辗转难眠，
一样被孤单吞食。
悦耳金曲陪伴着，
轻轻的环绕再耳际，
安慰着太静的夜，
让我少了份孤单。
2009年的第一晚，
想着银行里的存款，
剩这可悲的数字，
一个可能乞丐都多过的数字。。。
2009年的第一晚，
Bob Marley的歌提醒了我，
don't worry be happy，
去年的不如意已过，
今年的未知可怕。。。
但有为朋友说，
有人说，命运，就像被强奸那样，反抗不了，就享受它吧！
如果是这样，我宁愿是强奸者。。。哈哈哈
2009年的第一晚，
晚安了～