Piss!

lately dunno what the hack happen to Streamyx damn!!! slow!

promise 1g but got only 99.9k~ Stupid!

My friend just launch a complain yesterday if 2 days later it is still like that I will call and screw them!!!!

我是禽兽

现在好象没了童话中的爱情，白雪公主不在纯真，百马王子不在绅士，恶魔可能是小白兔，

在也没有一世的爱，可悲～

有个朋友讲男人如野猫，也有讲男人如公狗，着样讲到好象男人是禽兽，

但有些男人真是“累家坊”害到我。。。

刚认识的女生以为我是浪子（我也想）真是的！

在过几个星期情人节了，最讨厌这一天了。

这年头好男人都不销了，都被搁放在橱上铺尘。

我不是什么浪子也不是王子，禽兽也不是，四不象。。。

但现在女生好象只喜欢禽兽， 我当公狗好了。。。

童话中的爱情可能梦里才有吧？

二月十四日谁得空约我！！！

Care for a shave?

Sweeney Todd star by Johnny Depp damn this movie is bloody love the red oozing blood, love the movie more! Sweeney Todd is a barber that seeks for revenge towards the man that tear rip this family apart for his own desire but later change into something more, more bloody… its all about human’s selfishness one selfishness lead to another become one’s misery. From an article I read Sweeney Todd could be a real villain that commit his crime in 1800 like Jack the ripper no trace and some say it is a myth.
Oh yea did I mention it is a musical? Have to find the sound track love the songs, BLOODY~

欲火焚身！

好热！！！ 热死人了，热到睡不着啊啊啊！床好象热锅子，只有电风扇，热热热！！！

Zombie

堕落中的润泽～变青色了～

Passing through life like a zombie. Meaningless, but yet relax, getting lazier everyday that’s why need to illustrate this zombie monster to see if I still got it. it looks like me in a way lately, my eyes are sleep late wake up late damn life hahaha working hard for a job… just like him I m lately a little confuse about my ways thinking.. thinking..

女人与高根鞋

今天去了金河Shopping没买了很多，一是因为没钱，二在着几个地方我很难找到size我个子大，加上男生的衣服都比女生的衣服贵， 就陪两女狂逛（陪女人逛街还满累不只要走，还要给意见），买衣，买鞋。。 就讲起着话题 —— 女人与高根鞋。
“我不能穿平地鞋，跌到时都是穿平地的高根的比较好平衡。”
我常听见女人们complain说穿高根很辛苦，脚会疼等等但我有几个朋友是以上的， 她们可以高根上山下海（不是夸张），高根就如爬山鞋吃地。。。
今天我的眼睛也很累因为女人们试鞋会忽高忽矮，好象在看股市。。。
但我本人喜欢看女人穿高跟鞋，常把腿拉长弄细，但穿不对就很碍眼，我看过有个女的走路时怪怪的好象会一下就瓜柴。。 有的走得象“pai ka”。
有些女人要穿高根但不能（就如我妹），穿上了会被女人isolated, 没一点高度的男人会被intimidated，我家的种会高大些。。。 我有和一个朋友打过赌，如果她可以找到一个11－12码高跟鞋我就穿出街，当然没实现，我连普通鞋子都难找了更何况高跟鞋。。。

黑.白

黑白世界
如果有个黑白的世界，
没颜色，
没声音，
只有黑或白，
坏以好也明显，
没隐藏，
没秘密，
只有黑或白，
对或错不会混浊
没中间，
左或右，
重或轻，
只有黑或白。

Movie day

The 1st day that I don’t need to work I when to midvalley and spend my whole day there alone, watching movies and to the gym… watch Game plan and American Gangster. I have a lot of comment on how the government rate the movies, or maybe is the cinema’s fault I don’t know but there is problem, for Warlords and I m legend they rated it U (umum or suit for every age to watch but hack it is violent), and game plan they rated it 18SG (for violent…) I thought I walk in to the wrong theate… Stupid!

The GAME PLAN

I love this movie it is warm, it is a comedy…
My tears keep sliding off my eyes for this one luckily no one saw it but I don’t really care if anyone sees, what is so weird about it? I m a big cry baby so?? Sue me bah!
All about family love father and daughter love, how a man that love himself so much learn how to love a daughter that he never knew before…
No need to say more about this movie cause I think most people watch ady huh?

American Gangster

This is not just any gangster movie, kinda love it although wai say it is stupid, stupid not because of the story, not the actor he say can see the mic… bah~ but I m too distracted by the story I didn’t notice hahaha.
This is base on a true story, the film stars Denzel Washington who potrays Frank Lucas a real-life heroin kingpin from Harlem who smuggled heroin into the US on American service planes returning from the Vietnam War and Russell Crown portrays Richie Roberts a noble police that don’t take bribe in a dark age for US arm force that attemp to bring down Luca's drug empire.
The movie start form 2 sides, from the gangster side (Frank) and the Police (Richie)… overall it is about how a black man wanted to build up something for himself, for his family and his community but in a different way, at the other end it is a noble cop that wanted a clean town that got sided by his own kind for being good… it is not a movie of shooting here and there booming bla bla… (kinda like “The Opium War or 鸦片战争” in China history) more about it’s story… love it, the only thing I hate about the movie is, it is cut, edited by the government too much that is it not the movie it is, watching it on DVD again...

Now I m waiting for Elizabeth the Golden age

Again about work

Finally my room is presentable to people, before this if bring girl back sure deduct mark 1 a story for another time after the living room is presentable 1st will put on the before and after picture I think people will faint when see the before picture…

This week I m finally free~ free from that low pay work till death job. WAIT don’t judge just yet, sure got people say this young guy can’t take it cause the real world is bla blab la… well after this fact judge again k…

1. My pay is only RM1600 and that only, no OT, no allowance, worst no EPF and I work at an event company…
   
2. Outstations have no allowance just claim back the accommodation and meals.
   
3. Work on holidays no double pay just replacement of leave.
   
4. I m in a production department, and my job description included: setting up during event, move things, flyer boy, casher… to sum it up mostly everything from a technician to a cleaner we need to do.
   
5. After event no need rest, straight back to office to work.
   
6. Did I mention my department has only 2 people?
   
7. All the above I still can live with it but my boss do things that slap her own mouth (always, that’s why I never think good about her), those types of people that can be friend but not work with…
   
8. I work from 9am till 6pm but she don’t like if I go back at 6pm (even if ii have nothing to do), so she like to have meeting at that time…
   

Bah what ever I m now out!!! Hahaha got some photos about the event I do for final at Cheras Pandan Perdana, Peng Hwa restaurent.

the morning before setting up, this time is settle by the contractor cause the setting is too big... before they come I have to go cloze up the road, felt so important for a while there, felt like is my father's road hahaha

before the event

some of the finalist

the winner~

there is a video that I took at genting about the 7 year old dance that I write of last few blog, let you people see how a 7 year old dance like a snake... she is goood~

Finally can online!! So much to update leh~ tomorrow la, damn a lot to do although now finally ended my career, have to now clean the house, keep my stuff, find job… got a chance to watch 2 movies just now talk about it later, a few blogs later write about my new year resolution now sleepy~

About work again

Damn tired, tomorrow we will be having our finale for our event (a talent search event), the children that compete don't looks like their own age, 7 years old she dance I say better than a 17, she walk as if she have boodies... but she is cute and her dance move.. DAMN!!! god level for her age hahaha, I mean mostly kids this age dance cute not sexy. No weekend for me again this week but till 15 I will be away from this company... hey is for my own good, if you know where I m now (a CC at Pandan Perdana), doing what (Sending an art work to a Newspaper) and why (cause the company's server down... for 2 days ady~) well this is not just it.. no need to condemn future nothing good will come from it.. PLUS HAPPY COMING CHINESE NEW YEAR~

悲会走

看着那张熟悉的脸，
没生气的脸，
如生人的脸，
带着微笑的。
我以花代香敬您，
敬那曾经对在生的您，
看躺着冷冰冰的，
以不会说，
不会动，
悲，看着他们的泪。
思念以走了的，
失去了，
悲会走，
安息吧。。。

给敬爱的四姨丈公

No! good luck, don't do it...

After read Oracle’s blog about children and having a chat with my friends about friends getting married, I stand my ground it is not responsible to get into a marriage because or accidents. Event there is Love BY THE MOMENT (unless it is all concretely prove that both are REALLY loving each other). Well many will say this is such bullshit, this is irresponsible, but have anyone thought of it? How will it be if the couple ends up divorce? Where will the kid end up being? With all they felt it is like world war 3 all over for them so is it healthy?

Well mostly people call me a jerk for this, still it all goes back to the girl, if she wanted the baby yes I will go on with her help her in the task etc etc but NO not marriage… if not abortion should be it (don’t really like the idea but… future counts more I think). Well theory is always easier than practical, that’s why kids, use a condom that is the easiest thing to do if you are not so bright… to be more precautions with a condom, shoot outside… but if you are that unlucky (with all the condom and all…) GOOD LUCK will do… 

p/s: if you are scare girls... boys... DON'T DO IT!

HAPPY NEW YEAR~

Kian, Me (got sit on...) Hazel, Wai, SzeYuin, Emily, LikLin, Yiling~ (Still lots of space left... guys gathering on CNY~)

Last night was just fun, although there isn’t much people, food ain’t that great, booze not that much but it is Superb! Lots of catching up, lots of memories from small very small~ and a cake for New Year itself (cake not bad pick by SzeYuin they all 1). Hope everything will be better for all, for all my beloved friends HAPPY NEW YEAR may 2008 be better~ for all… (expecially me.. MUAHAHAHHA) too bad the rest of the gang can't be here... seriously wish you guys are here...

Last Blog of 2007

Early of 2007
I when into my senior year do more assignments and some of it my most satisfy 1, the durex ad is 1 of it… it is a fuss, it is stress but I enjoy it all even the stress, less clubbing, less drinking this year but enjoy it all while doing it…
My final year exhibition, although it is not a total success but still consider ok to go on with, when to a fabulous club – the Luna Bar, miss all the good times…

Mid of 2007
Have my second tattoo on my back.

One of my friends from TAR college got married~ it became a big gathering for us from D1.

Graduated, have the long long holiday again to consider how my life and carrier should go.
The 1st time I done charity work directly with the kids from the children shelter, bonded with some of them.

When to KLPAC for the 1st time and when to my 1st musical – Tunku for the 1st time, thanks to the kids of Ti-Ratana, at every break I have to slightly explain to them what is the scene about but everything is good, is cool! Cause I just love musical~
Knew some cool friends...

End of 2007

Climb Mt. KK enjoy the whole trip! love it love it!

Got my 1st real job (underpaid, and work with 4 hands and 2 head job), resign from it not because I can’t cope, just I can’t stand the boss… find something better (hopefully).

Move out of Cyberjaya (finally), this Christmas have a small Wine dinner party at our place (at Wangsa Maju) love it~ last year celebrate Christmas at Singapore enjoyed it but with the wine and all it compensate. 

This new year eve I m back at Kelantan have a small count down party, better than last year, I bought a bottle of yellow tail (sux) and finish it myself with a beg of chips while watching Star Wars (pathetic)…

This year didn’t really include any real relationship or any that I take it seriously while hope it be better at 2008, cheers and a HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL~

Swastika the symbol of redemption

现在象欧洛格宣战～ 哈哈哈， 这是我在 Second Year 的时候 Design 的，“万” 在亚洲它可是一个神的标字就如十字架一样。。。 但因为第二世界大战 NAZI 把它名声弄臭，余臭万年。。。

多多指教～

more to come...

home sweet home

Never felt so relax in sometime, I m now sitting in my parents room watching a big screen tv and browsing online via wifi~ damn this is something, now clearing my leaves because this company don’t wanna compensate me with cash… oh yea I have resign hahah kinda felt good bout it, but now the problem is I m now jobless sigh well let it be for now, hope for a better 1 to come…





but it took 13 hours to get back on train... sigh~ next time get a plane ticket earlier and faster, the the picture above is taken after I woke up, and I don't know where the hack it is in Kelantan...


My "cat face", just woke up with puffy eyes


Picture taken from my "coffin" window

Oh yea I always call the bed on train “coffin” because it is just the right length for my height… not so comfy to say

2 more movies

Another 2 movies~ well this time didn’t watch it in a roll but 2 days 2 movies hahah, at least this time I have nothing to complain by saying there is so MANY in my list of “wanna watch movies” I m a movie holic… but still there is a lot in the list of “wanna watch movies”. I hate to go to the cinema alone especially watching movies well now it is no more a factor that stop me (good movies are more than a companion… :p), but hack I just got pity by the casher while I m buying my ticket for “I m legend”, “when I say ticket for 1”, he ask me “for 1?” well with that look in his eyes… sigh, I just give him a “so what” smile… (Bleeding inside *sob*)

Picture taken from: http://friendsofdoom.com/gz/img/post/news/2007-06-09-IamLegend_poster_lrg.jpg

I m Legend:
It is seriously a sad movie, not that much actions but quite sentimental for a “biohazard” kind of movie~ love it but leave with a move grey mood from the movies… plus tired from the workout.

Picture taken from: http://www.impawards.com/2007/posters/alvin_and_the_chipmunks.jpg

The next day when for Alvin and the chipmunks:
This brings some childhood memories~ I watch their cartoon before but this is also a good Christmas movie really cheer things up~ cute furry and classic. It is really an antidote after I m Legend, kills the blue. oh yea Jason Lee look damn different from My name is Earl, almost can't recognize him...

Festive Season~ HOHOHO~

Christmas is coming most of the time I hate festive season a lot (exclude Chinese New Year) especially Christmas and Valentine bah, when there is a party I dot mind but mostly the program by that day involve drinking alone at home sigh… what a grey Christmas hahah.. oh yea Merry Christmas...

This week I got the chance to watch 2 movies, Warlords and National Treasure 2: the book of secrets damn cun wei~

Warlords:

(Picture Taken from: http://www.monkeypeaches.com/thewarlords.html)

Sad story, there is always promises, promise to be brothers and live together no matter by happiness or sorrows, to protect each other （什么不求同年同月同日生… 什么扰我兄弟者，必杀之。。。） But in the end… sigh but I do wish I have a bro like 金城武，“大哥是对的”a bro that stand by me always hahaha.

(Picture Taken from: http://blog.ugo.com/images/uploads/national_treasure_2_poster.jpg)
National Treasure:
As usual adventure and brains, this time the concept looks more like tomb raider add on Indianan Jones but overall it is ok, seems like something is missing don’t know what but still like the movie~

Damn there is still a lots of movies I wanted to watch~
Merry Christmas to all and hope I have something to do on Christmas… any program any one?

Prisoner

From a statue you found a prison,
With a guard dog that bark at all cause,
Your complains will only relieve you for a few seconds.
Which one is better?
A cold statue that is a control freak,
At least thee still free,
Or a prison that cold you up cold,
And move you around like a puppet?
We will be here, an island to isolate you for a while,
But what you choose is on your own will,
We have no place to say,
What you choose is on your own will,
And you choose a prison.

My Daemon

My Daemon...it is a ButterFly am I like this?

毒嘴一族

二于三小姐

刚才把两位周家大小姐上了飞机飞到日本，好想跟着去， 那晚我们周家把在场的人都得罪了（当然那些人不知道，不然被打成肉饼了）。
这是我三婶常说的“你们周家的嘴巴都好毒”，我们年轻的都把那当做是称赞。。。串功一流。。。 常把不爽的人串起来（通常我们都是人不惹我，我不惹人）但如果不知趣,咱们都会请他吃串烧。。。

得罪人的罪证：

1. 把穿裙的女孩都说成笨笨想不开。。。日本下着雪。。。还穿裙子真的有点想不开。。。
   
2. 把来送行的家人说成大题小做。。。一人去，三人送。。。人家第一次嘛。。。
   
3. 还有人哭。。。WTF （这我说的) 现在去玩吧了好不好，三个星期。。。真的是第一次。。。出去读书时不知怎样。
   
4. 婶婶对我说，扎看下好像我们周家女孩最有看头。。。 the rest 算了吧。。。
   

还有好多好多。。。忘了

两位小姐玩得开心些，但不要忘了手信！

闹脾气的天空

今天天空好像哭过，但又好象发了脾气的黑乌乌的，在回到 Wangsa Maju 轻快铁上看到 KLCC 好像被闹着脾气流着泪的找“人” 出气。。。 KLCC 的灯光在反抗着，没了顶，但没有好点的相机，没有好点的 perspective 轻快铁上太多人了。。。 下了车才有几会。。。但手机的相机就是 limited...

Closet

Secrets, everyone have their own secrets even the most naïve person have a few skeleton in their closet. There can’t total truth in this world even the most loveable couple, well as they say if they didn’t find out it is always right to the other side that try to keep it.
Sometimes secrets can be dangerous, it bring a couple a part, it crack a family, it can be mysterious, it can be just a joke…
I have build up my closet, it is getting bigger and bigger the bones pilling up, mentally it is kind of tired. But still I didn’t find someone that I want to show to skeletons to maybe bit-by-bit.
If you want to know something maybe you can ask me it depends if I will open the closet or not, but one thing I can confirm if I tell you I might need to kill you…

colors

Lately my blog is quite grey,
My feelings are lately blue,
Work life seems black,
But lately some fresh colors came in,
Mom is here looks pinky,
My cancel leave is uncancel felt baby blue,
I need more green, red, gold, silver...

is it me?

Lately there isn’t much to express, all but work seems life have turn down the gradient color change towards black and white, Zeek woke up with a banging pain in his head, once he look over to his side there he find himself lying beside with blood like a blanket covering “himself”, “is it me?” he thought with a clam thought, not much horror or fright, everything is clam, is like he have seen it a lot of times. Pick himself up and walk out of the room there is a trail of blood dripping down the hall way. Only a peck of light lit his sight, with the trail of blood he follow, till the end he saw again himself standing there with rage… the other him blow his fist at Zeek... Blank… Zeek woke up with a banging pain in his head, once he look over to his side there he find himself lying beside with blood like a blanket covering “himself”… “is it me?!”

发脾气的一篇

首先我要谢谢爸妈。。。终于发现我曾是个不可一世的二世祖（夸张了。。。)工做时发现。。。他妈的死婊子王八生的蛋！！！（最进冤气重了少少）钱真的难赚！气！最后对不起。。。

梦

最进发了几个怪梦，看到自己在梦里被人打激着。。。悲哀。。。听说梦是事实的向反，有的说是予知，有的说是心理的反应， 太多说法杂乱无章，模糊。。。 是工做？是空虚？反映了自己但，我看不到，迷失了。。。迷失了自己。。。找着旧的自己没长大的自己。。。最近做着自己也不知为何会做的事，迷失了？逃避？是我但不是我。。。我知道的是我要枝酒。

Dinner

Last week when to CHILIES one of the my favorite restaurant to dine in, and lately I have come up with the habit of shooting everything I see with my phone (although still wanted a Nikon D80) hahah, new gadget new habit… some of my views while there at the restaurant with my friend.





While I m finishing my meal the manager walk up to us and ask about the food… well you know “how is it… etc” my friend end up bullshitting a bunch about this and that end up the manager send us a complimentary desert – brownie with ice-cream, thank dude and my diet for the night is spoil… well guilty pleasure.


This last picture for the blog is actually a cherry stick, a skill I m still polishing… well believe me or not, it is tide into a knot with my tongue… heheh wanna try?!

睡好

刚刚睡醒才发现已惊1200了， 自从做工以来已经好久没睡好了。。。 颓废的生活好舒服～ 希望以后的形期六日都可以着样。。。

影子

同路的人很多， 但当到目地时才发现自个是孤身独影。
“Dori” 他书挺不错。。。买了两本来看。。。
www.gamzadori.com

Men. Women

There is a few kind of women well the major kind that we can see is categorize in to 2 category, 1 is girls at 15 wanna act like 30 the other one is 30 wanna act like 15… well it is clearly seen mostly in malls, well and some sub category well it all depends on the behavior, the environment etc there is women like witches (crazy mad), fairy (perky), princess (soft), elf (wise) etc, well mostly women act according to their mood (no offence) well this is not said by me, this is heard from a transsexual (woman to man) what he say during the interview…
Well at least men are more consistences on acting in our way; there are 2 major behaviors, the son and the father. Well the father tries to be the MASTER of all being… in a relationship, driving etc but they can be more caring in a sense. The son is a spoil brat that needed caring from maybe their mother or girlfriend, more “me” than others but sometimes they can be cute…
This is just something I thought of lately, but sure they are an org or a prince still can’t define they are good or not (in every sense).

Window Shopping

As I say lately going window shopping is going out to see things that you can’t afford, well they just look back on you with white eye saying buzz of if you can’t take me home, another arrogant way to say it is, if you need to ask how much is it, leave it, you can’t afford it… hahah yea that’s partly true and yes it is the end of the month anxious for my salary to come hahaha, damn tired just got back from Batu Pahat well this is the last out station work I will have for now not till January (not that I know of).

Sick

Again with the flu than come his friends cough and sore throat damn hate them ate them a lot, but too bad me and flu are good fiends for years, I have nose allergies, dust, strong sense (perfume, air purifier etc) can just trigger the sneezing mechanism and it will go on sometimes for days sigh, well being sick can’t eat a lot of stuff but damn I wanted to eat all those in a sudden… felt like a pregnant lady… bah is like what I always say 人永远都是犯践的 means human always like to do what is no good for themselves, well don’t you say “no… not me… no~” well if you say this it is bull shit… everyone does even the hollies man… muahahaha… suck!

well friends take care of your body, germs are every now, well as I say flu is back~ it is a trend

Behavior

Just got back from Melaka, and before Melaka I m station at Johor Bharu – Plazza Pelagi for 2 days alone, and the third day my co-workers come, at 1st I thought I will die of boredom there but phew~ I knew some friends then damn cool friends and I never know that I m that attractive to uncles and aunties. 1 of our sponsors give us 600 packs of just box per day (and it keep coming daily for 3 days), when I start giving out free and I really no a cent wanted FREE, no one wants… and they doubt that it is real, when they figure out the “really it is FREE part” they take far more then one… well it comes will plastic begs…

HUMANS ARE THAT GREEDY. There are exceptions…

Well no only one time they came back with plastic, I assume they are bringing it back from the entire neighborhood… no bad but this human behavior kind of shock and disgusted me a little…

Pain all over

Tooth ache there is a tooth at the back has part of it chip off… sigh, all because of my bad habit crunching ices, I like to bite on ice sigh have to correct this bad habit. There is an invisible stress all over me I don’t know what it is but it ain’t feeling good.

I’m no superman

Well things that is expected can’t be done perfectly well sometimes I can be blame for nor being sharp enough, well lately too tired to be that sharp… one thing I cant stand here is sometimes I m think as a mutant with 3 heads 6 arms that can do 3 or more things in one time! Damn or I have super human speed that finishes things in seconds darn! Well sometimes I do hope I m that…
“Well I know what I’ve been told
U gotta work to feed the soul
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
I’m no superman
I’m no superman”
Laslo Bane from his song superman
p.s. you wan that kind quality and speed? pay that kinda money

寓言故事

好久好久以前在一个树林里住着一个肥蜻蜓就叫它蜓好了。 蜓对住在沼泽里的变色龙 —— 者一见中情，但者对蜓就是不理才，无论蜓做什么都没用， 可怜的蜓怎么试都忘不了。 在这时蜓认识了小蜜蜂 —— 蜂，认为和蜂在一起会让它忘了者。。。 但蜓不知情下对蜂要求与改变，把蜂改变成蜓要的摸样。者没翅膀，蜓就把蜂的翅膀拔掉， 者有四只脚，蜓就把“多余”的脚拔掉。。。 蜂不再是蜂，蜂也不成者。。。

Another old folk tale

Once a pone time far far away at a village so far away that no one really know about it, and no one really stay there except for 2 friends and their family. The man of 1 family call Razit, him wife pass away not long ago because of sickness. The woman of the other family is Holid, not even she know where her husband have when too, he said to her that he is going to find fortunes when he is back to her. Both of Razit and Holid have 2 sons and daughter, and they have been friends dunno since when…
But one thing about Holid, she doesn’t have the responsible sense and have put her family in starvation when the raining season come, where there is no food to be find and hunt, but she always receive help from Razit her good neighbor, with advice and warning that she have to prepare the next year, but year after year it is still the same.
Till one year, it rain too bad, there is flood and land slide there is not much food left even for Razit’s family, again on the door come Holid for help, this time Razit is piss! He yell at her using the most unbearable words, “fuck off, there is nothing here, I don’t even have enough for my family, fuck off if you still think me as a friend, this is not the 1st time I warn you... and how it end up now? Now fuck off I have nothing more to say to you”.

Well guys what you think the moral of the story tells? Razit is cruel? Or the laziness and ignorance of Holid?

Love. Like

This is a question I got from a friend’s blog… what is love and what is like? Love like love like what’s the difference? I reply you can like everyone but you can’t love everyone. It is?

Pay day

I just got my pay cheque for a month,
Never guess people will be up sad while receiving their salary…
Sigh… I m wondering how to cover my living with this money, never have this kinda thoughts before, never while I m receiving from my parents… blah start 5 days late in the job my basic have less out RM400… what to do what to do…

世界末日

电脑播放着周杰伦 －－ 世界末日，
脑带放空想着那首歌对我的意义，
假日也要做工，
打工的日子，
最讨厌的是这不是我喜欢的。。。
喜欢的难到这么难得到？
难到喜欢的就得不到？
还真希望世界末日。。。
至少真情流露就在那天。。。
丑恶，美丽，就在最后一天。

礼物

每当生日的时候，时时都希望收到一些特别的礼物或记忆。
泽泽（是念“这这”，是我家人叫的小名）小时的礼物都是玩具。。。 除了童年就是童年。。。
第一份从朋友的礼物是在 Form 3，一件紧身衣， 第一条紧身衣，没了,不见了, 但我还记得，它的颜色，款式。。。

第二份是 Form 4 的时后， 一件没袖的 T-Shirt, 第一件这样的衣服，当然当年的我真是他妈的瘦！（衣服在吉兰丹没得拍），这也是她送的第一份礼物。。。

第三份是 Form 5 时到了学校在坐位睡觉的时后塞给我的迷迷糊糊的收下，非常喜欢，用到烂都还收着。。。




第四份是在拉曼读书的时后死党们寄来的，收到卡时眼泪掉下，这年里收到最珍贵的礼物。




第五份是我 D1党的厚礼，一个难忘的生日派对，一个纸黏土做的“润泽头模型”，可爱吧？


第六份是简单的一餐 Pizza Hut，以及天公送的一场雨。。。

第七份是被关在房里一整日。。。一双熊熊的小鞋子和一套床单。。。
熊熊是我的怎样？！


今年的是手琢，有个壁虎的雕刻。


谢谢你们的礼物以记忆。。。希望有更好的更珍贵的。。。
第一次用华语写那么多。。。好累。。。

谢谢伟伦的汉语拼音教导。。。

我做人爹了！

星期六下了班就到 Ti-Ratana，好久没到那里探望他们了， 到那里看到了一个快要考SPM 但还没真正温习，碎碎念了他一整天， 威胁，利诱，都用了不知进脑没。。。 就好象当年老爸念一样。。。希望吧，希望他能顺利过道这关吧。。。

Hierarchy

For the 1st time I felt that KL is my second home… days at Kuantan is just killing me! Well partly is because of the work the other thing is nothing to do, dunno where to go… going to places like this best that u know where you are going or you have some one that does… wanna be adventurous but too bad no time… blah!
The route back from Kuantan make me felt a little home sick, passing through junctions that leading back home but I need to pass through it to my new life… sometimes when we can be naïve, I hope that we can stay that way always, always back in uniform, won’t have to think of what to where, there are rules to break, class to skip, home work to ditch, tuitions to attend and a few Ringgit as allowance but miraclly compare to now it is always enough…


Hierarchy of needs (Mine…)typo... cant not can


Now my head is like this...

again bout work...

Well today is the second day and 3rd night at Kuantan, this is the 1st working trip experience I have and all I can say is one word – BORING!!! We dunno hack about Kuantan been eating crappy food for this few days, no guide to tell us where to eat… blah and damn little people here at Megamall, dunno what so mega it is… just hope time pass by faster this few days and will be going back to KL at Monday and still have to work… sigh, work life seems like I need to get use to it… well having a day off at Tuesday, no rest then, need to get my IC, my tooth and “something” done… that something will be tell later in time (when it is a success…)
p.s. I m typing this blog in the middle of the mall, watching sinchan too… and chasing flies away…
Anyone with exciting working life than this?? Any? Intro please…

Praise more

I just found out that what people say will make me uneasy… is not when they are being sarcastic, mocking, scold etc this wont be anything to me (depends on whose talking), well it is quite the opposite, I feel uneasy is when people start to praise or give compliments, hahah it is happy to get those sometimes but some times I just get “shy” damn, well I m not as thick face as I thought…

But the right thing to do will be giving out compliment always, from the heart that is, being a fake will just make things worst well like what I say damn it to hell to those people with thick mask / double face ass… muahahah

Holiday

Wow today KL is really a dead city; there isn’t a car on the road! Well everyone should have flee out of KL back to their home town for Hari Raya… well for a sudden I miss home a lot, the food well there is too much to list down over here (check szeyuin’s blog, she have introduce some Kelantan food) sometime when I hear people speak in Hokkian, there is something that draw me clozer, it felt like home for a while but I don’t think any other people that knows how to speak Hokkian can understand the slang of Kelantan Hokkian hahaha geng leh, like a guy use to say Muar’s Chinese, well we have Kelantan’s Hokkian! And Keantan malay slang hahaha those that think they are good in Malay, well think again… not even a Malay understand Kelateh (Kelantan in Kelantan slang) well this is our heritage… love the place well it is where I m born, and fuck those ignorant people that think so and so of that place hahah, we don’t live on trees, Chinese people do eat pork, we can et liquors if wanted you name it there is it, but I bet some stuff you can even get else where… so think before you speak…

Stone Age

Phew~ traveling from CyberJaya to Cheras is DAMN tired! Wake up at 0645, wait the bus at 0730 but the bus only comes at 0800 this is the problem… the bus is never on time well I don’t think part of Malaysian are always not on time I hate being late but lately to work I m always late… sorry~ well that’s the thing I hope it will improve sooner or later… system man system~
If it can have it upgrade till the level that s’pore is, well I think it should be good, won’t it? by then it will really decrease jam here and there because of the convenience of public transport… now it is like stone age… sad

Work work~

1st day at the office~ no one in yet excluded Horus and me, nothing much to do but blog on and check some mails hehehe, well things are still hanging but getting better (I hope…), my terms and condition isn’t well settle (I don’t even know my real pay yet), will have to talk to the boss later when they arrive, other from that nothing much is going on in the office. Blah 1 thing I hate the most is traveling!! Damn it is damn damn tiring! Well for one thing I m still staying at CyberJaya! Need to get a replacement and move to KL ASAP! And waiting for my car to come bah~

Work

Will be starting work in about a few hours~ sigh… well wish me luck need a lot of it… can’t online lately damn line got cut because didn’t pay bill… long story…

Growing up...

Yesterday when back to Ti-Ratana after 3 weeks not been there, miss them a ton~ damn Upali now know how to walk ady~ sigh I miss all of it, and he didn’t recognize me, sigh…

Love hate relationship

front

and side

Arrrgh having a love hate relationship with my new hairstyle… speechless
Everyone is talking about my hair~ I dunno being an attention catcher is it good or not…
Looks like sakai
Why you go cut like that…
But look cute…
Looks like coconut tree…
No la you so big look more like plam oil…
Lala chai…
Bla bla bla bla………………………
ARRRGH


Picture taken here edited...
Actually I wanted it this way
But well got cut too short become too punk love but sometimes hate conflict….
IT’S CALL PUNK! Not like the above or those not written…

oh by the way I finally got a JOB~ yea a JOB~ and with this hair~~